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[mlongvb12]

There are only five days left until I get to go home and I can't wait. I have been getting pissed off a lot lately and I thought it was just me at first, but I finally realized it isn't. College, boyfriends and new friends change people and I'm having a hard time dealing with it. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if it was just a few things that were different, but not when it goes from one extreme to the other. I am very picky about my friends and how I choose them, and when they lose the qualities I first saw in them and become the type of person I can't stand it really worries me. It makes me sad to see things going that way, but if that's the lifestyle they want to lead I can't do anything about it. It's hard to admit that to myself but I guess there isn't much choice. It's obviously getting to me because I started crying yesterday and I honestly can't remember the last time I cried. I guess it'll be good to go back home and be with my family because I know them well enough to know they've already discovered who they are and other people in their lives aren't gonna influence them enough to change that. It'll be good to start work also cuz it will keep me occupied and I'll be making money.

I sold some of my books back today and got $103, which was more than half of what I paid for them. One of the bookstores on 3rd was only offering me $40, so I'm glad I went to the UC instead. I had two of my exams today also and I think they went pretty well. I don't have another one until 3 on wednesday and y last one at 10 on Thursday. Then my mom is coming to get me Friday and as soon as I finish packing I'm gone.