Writing Thoughts
I haven’t written any kind of fic in a long, long time. The last thing I wrote was my Clex the Classics entry, and I felt like I really dropped the ball with it. But I would definitely try it again.
My writing problems are all coming from within. I feel like a whiney loser even posting about it, but basically, I feel like I can’t come up with anything original, and my stories are all trite and completely meh. So I decided to stop writing fic for a while. Well, I also stopped because I just wasn’t feeling any inspiration, at all. Additionally, I have this obnoxious teenage Mary Sue stuck in my head and she won’t freaking go away. When I try to write something original, she shoves her way into it and is all fussy and just makes me hate whatever I’m doing.
So, (getting repetitive here), I decided to take a break. And during that break I attempted to exorcise the Mary Sue by giving her a faux journal, with the hope she would eventually shut up if I let her say whatever she wanted to say. That didn’t work nearly as well as I thought it would. She shut up, all right, but she didn’t get out whatever it was she wanted to get out and she shut everyone else up, as well. I think part of the problem was that I was trying to deal with her in a vacuum, and without her having anyone else to bounce off of, she just kind of flops around a little and then eventually collapses in a little heap. Maybe I need to RP her, but who the hell wants to RP with a whiney teenage Mary Sue? I mean, maybe if it was comedy, but this isn’t, so. Ick.
I also printed off a bunch of those character-creation lists that writers and actors use and tried to use them, but they gave me a headache. I’ve used them before successfully when I was acting, but never as a writer. I suspect this is fear based. I think that I’m afraid to bring actual characters to life. I just can’t figure out why I would be afraid of that.
But maybe the tide is turning a little.
I just signed up for Nanowrimo this afternoon, and I even have an idea for it. I have no idea if I’ll be able to sustain the idea, or if I’ll decide it’s uncreative and trite and forced like I feel the rest of my writing is. But I figure there’s only one way to find out. And if it is predictable and forced sounding, well, that’s okay, I guess. One of the things I like about the nanowrimo concept is that it doesn’t have to be good. Apparently, low expectations work for me.
I did also sign up for oxoniensis’ Vice Versa Challenge, so that will provide a little pre-Nanowrimo distraction.
And now I have committed to two writing projects, and I am absolutely terrified.
My writing problems are all coming from within. I feel like a whiney loser even posting about it, but basically, I feel like I can’t come up with anything original, and my stories are all trite and completely meh. So I decided to stop writing fic for a while. Well, I also stopped because I just wasn’t feeling any inspiration, at all. Additionally, I have this obnoxious teenage Mary Sue stuck in my head and she won’t freaking go away. When I try to write something original, she shoves her way into it and is all fussy and just makes me hate whatever I’m doing.
So, (getting repetitive here), I decided to take a break. And during that break I attempted to exorcise the Mary Sue by giving her a faux journal, with the hope she would eventually shut up if I let her say whatever she wanted to say. That didn’t work nearly as well as I thought it would. She shut up, all right, but she didn’t get out whatever it was she wanted to get out and she shut everyone else up, as well. I think part of the problem was that I was trying to deal with her in a vacuum, and without her having anyone else to bounce off of, she just kind of flops around a little and then eventually collapses in a little heap. Maybe I need to RP her, but who the hell wants to RP with a whiney teenage Mary Sue? I mean, maybe if it was comedy, but this isn’t, so. Ick.
I also printed off a bunch of those character-creation lists that writers and actors use and tried to use them, but they gave me a headache. I’ve used them before successfully when I was acting, but never as a writer. I suspect this is fear based. I think that I’m afraid to bring actual characters to life. I just can’t figure out why I would be afraid of that.
But maybe the tide is turning a little.
I just signed up for Nanowrimo this afternoon, and I even have an idea for it. I have no idea if I’ll be able to sustain the idea, or if I’ll decide it’s uncreative and trite and forced like I feel the rest of my writing is. But I figure there’s only one way to find out. And if it is predictable and forced sounding, well, that’s okay, I guess. One of the things I like about the nanowrimo concept is that it doesn’t have to be good. Apparently, low expectations work for me.
I did also sign up for oxoniensis’ Vice Versa Challenge, so that will provide a little pre-Nanowrimo distraction.
And now I have committed to two writing projects, and I am absolutely terrified.