Goodbye Black, Hello Copper.
Hey,
Today I woke up at 7.45. My sister and I had to go to a doctor to declare what happened at the car accident. I was so tired. When we got home, we watched New Moon. 12.30 my sister had to be at school. I came with her. After that we went out shopping.
Helly (pseudonym), the girl I had a lot of fun with the other day, told me she wanted to dye her hair. I was like: Oh, my God! Me tooo.
& We are going to do it together. She is blond and she's going to dye her hair amber, less yellow though. My hair is black and I'm going to dye it copper brown, a little more orange. I'm so excited. Wednesday I'm going to her place and we're going to do it together, we already bought the thing :D
One other thing... S. is definitely not over Frey, the girl who rejected him earlier, also the pseudonym. I'm trying to talk to him, but there's always something holding me back. I know he isn't over that girl.. and I'm just waiting at the sideline. He stopped trying to asking her out but he's still trying to get to her by seeing her.. as 'friends'. This afternoon she came to his house and they sailed and they rode a wakeboard. I told you his was rich..
I feel so inferior in front of him. I mean I'm really trying here. I like him, or at least I want to get to know him better, but I don't want to show him because I know he isn't over that girl and it would be so awkward if he'd know. Besides, I started doubting. Maybe he's just no good for me and maybe he won't even accept me the way I am. Maybe he'll always (I don't even know if it is that way) think I'm not good enough.
Urgh.. I've been feeling pretty insecure these days.