May 22, 2005 22:49
These days are filled with thoughts of hate and love and the lock-in brought it all to a harsh reality. Some hate I may never be able to let go of. Some love I may never be able to share.
It hurt to see all those who feel unloved. I never really feel unloved. Just unlovable. There's a huge difference to me. One I'd rather not try to explain.
I spent Jealee's birthday working until 1:00 AM and then the birthday plans got shattered the minute I walked in the door. Wrong kinda party.
I haven't slept in a long time. But Hannah was baptized today and that made it all OK. She is now claimed for Christ. And God's love remains with her forever.
JOHN 3:16 has so much depth. And so much power. And on a mild May night 42 people changed my perspective and touched my heart yet again. And I am a better person for the experience.
Another graduation this week. A third child in four years. I remember their giggles, games and childish behavior like it was yesterday. Because it was yesterday.
So much is upon me all at the same time. And Yet I find myself at peace.
Thanks Reggie. For the inspiration on and off the court. Someday, maybe, we can ball up, cous, from that great three point line in the sky...