One of these days, when I snap, it won't be my fault but theirs...
I'm over my little crying jag now. Gave myself a reading just to get a little perspective on how things are now. I know some people would think it silly -- reading cards to help shape perspective. But my cards have never lied to me -- they've been vague, yes, but they've never lied.
Heading in early, as usual. It's become my weekly Tuesday/Thursday schedule to go in early to see to the kids. At the very least Trinity, Louise, Janjan, TJ and the rest will put the willing smile back on my face. Will pick myself up and then pull myself together. CCP may have been the last place where I'd felt as if I was a struggling dancer with no support from my classmates -- but I'm at Airdance now, where I have friends from the regular season, where I dance well and dance good. Where some of the instructors appreciate me as a student.
It should take more than the frickin' Powerpuff Girls (as they havebeen dubbed) and an idiot with a problem to get me down.
Ms. Myra isn't coming in today again, so that means more time to rehearse for Contemporary Dance. Ms. Nina plans to finish things up today so that in the next two weeks all we'll be seeing to will be the rehearsals and run-thrus to perfect each dance to both time and music. Same goes for Adult Ballet. Makes sense considering that Airdance will be gone for the Hong Kong gig. If people cooperate (yes, I am POed at some of the students who think they damn well own the place and come in LATE for class each and everytime), everything will follow thru smoothly.
Breakdance for Company class was pretty good yesterday. We did the bboy circle again and wasn't too bad this time. Sir Jay gave a routine and then each of us were tasked to add to it. I did a little something, but it was good enough for a smidgen of praise. Talk is that we might have another go at it. I'm hoping for that, but we'll see.
*le sigh*
Am quietly hoping that Sian nisa_dranyam will be able to drop by today. I could use a hug. Or two. Or more. Really. I never expected to experience stress -- not at Airdance, but given the current circumstances (which I know I'm not really doing a good job of elaborating on) I am feeling a little stressed over stuff.
No.
Today will be better.
Tomorrow too.
I won't have it any other way.
Heading in early, as usual. It's become my weekly Tuesday/Thursday schedule to go in early to see to the kids. At the very least Trinity, Louise, Janjan, TJ and the rest will put the willing smile back on my face. Will pick myself up and then pull myself together. CCP may have been the last place where I'd felt as if I was a struggling dancer with no support from my classmates -- but I'm at Airdance now, where I have friends from the regular season, where I dance well and dance good. Where some of the instructors appreciate me as a student.
It should take more than the frickin' Powerpuff Girls (as they havebeen dubbed) and an idiot with a problem to get me down.
Ms. Myra isn't coming in today again, so that means more time to rehearse for Contemporary Dance. Ms. Nina plans to finish things up today so that in the next two weeks all we'll be seeing to will be the rehearsals and run-thrus to perfect each dance to both time and music. Same goes for Adult Ballet. Makes sense considering that Airdance will be gone for the Hong Kong gig. If people cooperate (yes, I am POed at some of the students who think they damn well own the place and come in LATE for class each and everytime), everything will follow thru smoothly.
Breakdance for Company class was pretty good yesterday. We did the bboy circle again and wasn't too bad this time. Sir Jay gave a routine and then each of us were tasked to add to it. I did a little something, but it was good enough for a smidgen of praise. Talk is that we might have another go at it. I'm hoping for that, but we'll see.
*le sigh*
Am quietly hoping that Sian nisa_dranyam will be able to drop by today. I could use a hug. Or two. Or more. Really. I never expected to experience stress -- not at Airdance, but given the current circumstances (which I know I'm not really doing a good job of elaborating on) I am feeling a little stressed over stuff.
No.
Today will be better.
Tomorrow too.
I won't have it any other way.