Gotta love friends!
Friends are one of the most important things in life. I am realizing that now, more than ever, I need these people in my life. They help to make my life so much more meaningful and they can help me so much with my problems by just offering a few kind words. And just knowing that they will be there for me is such an incredible feeling, i can't even describe it. I am learning that I have to make decisions that will affect the rest of my life. It's not easy, and it will never be easy, but it is something I have to do. Last weekend I hung out with Christy and it was just so much fun. Originally, I wasn't planning on going out because Rachel was hanging out with Ashley and Alison, and me and Rachel's friendship is pretty nonexistant. Christy asked me if I wanted to go out with her though since she knew I would feel uncomfortable with Rachel. I just thought the whole thing was so nice. We only went out for icecream, but it was completely drama free (which is usually rare) and it was great catching up with her. That is one thing I don't miss about Rachel...all of the drama...all of the meanness she had towards me...it was almost like she purposely built up all her rage just so she could take it all out on me. And, I mean, she called me and invited me out and said how she isn't going to act like she's 5 so things are weird for Ash and Alison, but the thing is...SHE DOES ACT LIKE SHE IS 5. That is what causes things to happen. It is so easy for her to sit there and say she has no problem with me, but as soon as I come close to her again, she will just continue her cruelty towards me. And to this day, I haven't the slightest idea why. My mom thinks she is jealous of me, but seriously, what is there to be jealous of? She gets everything she wants. The only reason she is acting nice now is to make herself look better than me, I think. I guess, in a way, she is kinda like Rick...which would explain why they get along so well and both have this intense hate for me. I no longer have time for people like that in my life. I have too many good, real friends to be wasting time on something that will never be...a friendship with no hope. I love my friends to death though and looking back, don't know what I would have done without them...esp these last couple monthes.