Head clearing.
oh em gee! to lj posts in under a week! i might possibly be on a roll!
I feel like a total dumb dora today. Ames has had CHRONIC diaper rash going on a month now. It would go away for a few days then come right back. I have changed everything from diapers to rash ointment to even formula praying something would help. Nothing did! I even used maalox on her poor, raw, red bum. The one thing I didn't change was her wipes. Duh me, duh. Changed her wipes yesterday and already it's healing and starting to go away!! Praise you Pampers Sensitive! Seriously, I'm a reject and buckets of diaper rash fail this month.
Last week I was having a pretty apathetic week. Even though things are going great I was starting to feel down about it. My life has totally change (for the better of course) over the past few months and sometimes I do find myself dreaming of my previous life. Being able to pick up and go whenever where ever I wanted. Sex. Drugs. You know, the care-free transient life that I will not be returning to anytime soon.
My cure for that...a womens shelter. True fact. I took some un-needed clothes to a local transition home for women with children. It really helped me put my life into prospective and regain the appreciation for everything that I have. I am so grateful for everything Ames and I have right now. Seriously, we are lucky bitches!
Yeah, okay...I'm a 27 years old single parent that lives with my parents. On paper, that looks awful and slightly pathetic, I understand that. In reality however I know that it isn't. I'm a single parent because I took responsibility for my irresponsible actions that other people (Amelias father) wouldn't also take responsibility for. I live with my parents...Oh well. It's not even like that. They have their room, I have the rest. Works out. Because of them I have a beautiful roof over our heads, I am able to go to school full-time while I raise my daughter and not have to pay for child care. They aren't raising her by any means. I cover all of our needs with my (sallie maes...) money, I tend to all of her needs alone, they just spoil her and give her right back.
I recently took a lot of flack for what I thought was a dear friend because of my situation. She tried to tell me that I have no clue what it's like to be a single parent because of my living situation. This statement from her ultimately ended our friendship. Just because they are giving us a roof over our heads doesn't make my situation any easier, it just simply covers one aspect of it all. I don't get child support for Ames and they sure as hell aren't shelling out money for us. I pay my care payments for a car I can't drive (ugh), buy everything my child needs (double ugh) without any help from anyone. On top of that I have a pretty hard semester currently and a child that will soon be cutting teeth. Nothing is going to come easy for us but I don't regret a single thing about any of it.
Fuck it, I'll say it...I'm proud to live with my parents. I'm in it to win it. I will do WHATEVER it takes to give my daughter anything and everything she will ever need.
On that note, I have an a&p exam to study for.
I feel like a total dumb dora today. Ames has had CHRONIC diaper rash going on a month now. It would go away for a few days then come right back. I have changed everything from diapers to rash ointment to even formula praying something would help. Nothing did! I even used maalox on her poor, raw, red bum. The one thing I didn't change was her wipes. Duh me, duh. Changed her wipes yesterday and already it's healing and starting to go away!! Praise you Pampers Sensitive! Seriously, I'm a reject and buckets of diaper rash fail this month.
Last week I was having a pretty apathetic week. Even though things are going great I was starting to feel down about it. My life has totally change (for the better of course) over the past few months and sometimes I do find myself dreaming of my previous life. Being able to pick up and go whenever where ever I wanted. Sex. Drugs. You know, the care-free transient life that I will not be returning to anytime soon.
My cure for that...a womens shelter. True fact. I took some un-needed clothes to a local transition home for women with children. It really helped me put my life into prospective and regain the appreciation for everything that I have. I am so grateful for everything Ames and I have right now. Seriously, we are lucky bitches!
Yeah, okay...I'm a 27 years old single parent that lives with my parents. On paper, that looks awful and slightly pathetic, I understand that. In reality however I know that it isn't. I'm a single parent because I took responsibility for my irresponsible actions that other people (Amelias father) wouldn't also take responsibility for. I live with my parents...Oh well. It's not even like that. They have their room, I have the rest. Works out. Because of them I have a beautiful roof over our heads, I am able to go to school full-time while I raise my daughter and not have to pay for child care. They aren't raising her by any means. I cover all of our needs with my (sallie maes...) money, I tend to all of her needs alone, they just spoil her and give her right back.
I recently took a lot of flack for what I thought was a dear friend because of my situation. She tried to tell me that I have no clue what it's like to be a single parent because of my living situation. This statement from her ultimately ended our friendship. Just because they are giving us a roof over our heads doesn't make my situation any easier, it just simply covers one aspect of it all. I don't get child support for Ames and they sure as hell aren't shelling out money for us. I pay my care payments for a car I can't drive (ugh), buy everything my child needs (double ugh) without any help from anyone. On top of that I have a pretty hard semester currently and a child that will soon be cutting teeth. Nothing is going to come easy for us but I don't regret a single thing about any of it.
Fuck it, I'll say it...I'm proud to live with my parents. I'm in it to win it. I will do WHATEVER it takes to give my daughter anything and everything she will ever need.
On that note, I have an a&p exam to study for.