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I'm wicked tired today. No real reason, just tired. Maybe my current slacking lifestyle has started to take it's toll on me. Ha.
Also, I have had this weird itching sensation, but like itching on the inside. Does that make sense? I itch, but on the inside. Yeah...don't judge me.
Patrick just finished building a new greenhouse by the house today. I'm bummed I'm not there. Really bummed. Being a farm right now would do amazing things for my current world view. Waking up to concrete is not appealing to me any longer. I want to walk out my front door and see sheep, grass, and even those cute pygmy goats. Not all this fucking strip mall, 8 lane roads, and stop lights. I long for my home where we have ONE stop light. ONE FUCKING STOP LIGHT. How amazing is that? I mean I know it sounds a little hippy or old timey to say I <3 my out house, but I really do. I love the fact that I live on a mountain. Not a hill, a mountain. It's amazing.
I can walk away from a lot of things in my life with ease, especially knowing that I have to be responsible for another life now. But I can NOT survive living in an urban environment. It's gross, the air quality sucks, and it's ugly.
I just want to go home. Be with Patrick.
Also, I have had this weird itching sensation, but like itching on the inside. Does that make sense? I itch, but on the inside. Yeah...don't judge me.
Patrick just finished building a new greenhouse by the house today. I'm bummed I'm not there. Really bummed. Being a farm right now would do amazing things for my current world view. Waking up to concrete is not appealing to me any longer. I want to walk out my front door and see sheep, grass, and even those cute pygmy goats. Not all this fucking strip mall, 8 lane roads, and stop lights. I long for my home where we have ONE stop light. ONE FUCKING STOP LIGHT. How amazing is that? I mean I know it sounds a little hippy or old timey to say I <3 my out house, but I really do. I love the fact that I live on a mountain. Not a hill, a mountain. It's amazing.
I can walk away from a lot of things in my life with ease, especially knowing that I have to be responsible for another life now. But I can NOT survive living in an urban environment. It's gross, the air quality sucks, and it's ugly.
I just want to go home. Be with Patrick.