May 18, 2003 23:32
if there is one thing that pushes my buttons, the wrong ones mind you, it is when someone says they are going to call but then they don't, ever. what is up with that??? i mean seriously, it isn't like i'm sitting by my phone waiting to answer a call, but it just bothers me that a so-called 'friend' doesn't have the decency to do what they say they are going to. honestly, someone calls me and leaves a message, so i call them back and i can tell they are preoccupied and so then they just say they will call me back the next day. well that was friday and i still have not received a call and sunday is almost over. how does that work?? i really don't understand it. and i actually had some important things that i needed to say anyways, oh, and you would think that since this person is my 'friend' they would care that i needed someone to talk to. i guess not!!!
my minister from when i was a little people died last night. he was in a car accident on monday night and he was in a coma ever since. it was sad ebcause he wasn't an old person and i can't picture him as being anything but physically fit. he was someone who had helped a great many people. when he left my church i was in elementary school and i didn't go to his last service because i didn't want to be sad. i'm still sad that i missed that and i would tell him that on numerous occasions when i would talk to him. it may sound weird but i absolutely do not want to miss the funeral because i need closure. i never received closure the first time around and i'm mad at myself for it. this is something i don't want to miss.
today is sunday and in 5 minutes when i leave i will have completed my 46 hour work week. i'm beginning to hate ho's, even when i'm being paid to be at one. i just don't care anymore. all i want to do is lay in the sun every day for the rest of my life. that is why i am planning my next vacation as we speak.