Life and stuff
Well, life is funny thing. I hate the way that people can just melt right out of your life and you'd never know they were even there except for the big ball of hurt they left behind them. Mark is away in Europe. I haven't heard from him for a long while, though he did e-mail me on my birthday, I am pretty sure that was the last I'll hear from him. I had a date a couple nights ago with a really nice guy, but there just wasn't anything there. It was akward and neither of us could think of anything to say to the other. However, you can't win if you don't play the game, so I am still trying to hold onto hope. I have been in a depression spiral and gained about 10 pounds since February. I am now trying my best to snap out of it and start eating better and excercising, but it is a lot easier to curl up with a big bar of chocolate or a bag of chips than get up earlier and go excercise. Sigh. On the upside, I did pull some guys at the clubs over the last 3 weeks. So, I now feel like a bit less of a sexual pariah. My new job is ok, just a job and not my life. Finally. =)I start at Uni tomorrow. I am taking two classes I am very excited about: World Anthropology and the Bible in Popular media. Should be fun. =) The whole idea that my 10 year high school reunion is this year is pretty mind-boggling. I can't believe so much time has passed. I still don't feel any more grown up. Just scrolling through the lists of people in our class and about 80% are married or have kids and I am just floating around on my own still. The weird thing is that I don't even want to get married. Ever. So, I am not sure if I feel jealous or relieved or smug or lacking. Probably, a heddy mixture of all of them. Well, that's about it for now.