Yesterday's festivities
Well, Latasha and I both have a night class tonight so I decided to celebrate Valentine's day with her Sunday instead. She had known all along we were going to go to Indy to go to P.F. Chang's (this really awesome chinese restaurant). What she didn't know was anything else I had been planning:
I talked her friend into getting her out of the house around noon yesterday to go shopping for their house next year. Thursday night I had scored their spare key when we went out drinking and just opted not to give it back so I could get in to her place in case nobody was there. I parked my car around the corner so she wouldn't see it. I had bought 2 dozen roses with which half were used to make rose petals and the other stayed the way they were. I went into her room, lit all her candles, spread the petals on her bed and floor, put the other dozen in a vase on her dresser, turned on the CD I had burned her for christmas and waited for her to get back. When she got back I ran and hid behind the door to her basement and waited for her to go into her room and when she did I came from behind the door and stood right behind her (wearing a suit mind you). She was very happy and actually told me that was the first time she'd ever been truly surprised by a b/f before. Later on we discovered rose petals bleed if left around for too long....her comforter was kinda ruined but she said it was still worth it. We went to P.F. Chang's and it was excellent. A good all around date.
this is where the venting process comes in at. Those of you who aren't interested shouldn't read further lol. Late last night we got into a discussion of how we feel and all that jazz. I had mentioned that my ultimate goal is to get to the point where I never have to wonder what would happen if the guy from Ireland she dated this past summer ever showed up again. After some questioning she came out and said that if he came back and was still interested and she felt the same way she did over the summer, that she would go back to him. Needless to say that really hurt, especially after a day of her praising me for being such a great guy blah blah blah. I don't think I ever have to worry about this guy randomly coming around again, but that doesn't mean what she said didn't bother me anyway. I had kinda told her that the whole situation felt like the movie "The Notebook" (for those of you who have seen it). I mentioned I kinda felt like the girl's fiance from the movie and things would unfold exactly like the movie if she ever decided to visit Ireland(which she has always wanted to do anyway) or if he ever started e-mailing her again. For those of you who haven't seen the movie I'll just say that he isn't a good character to feel like.
I really don't think I have to worry about this guy, but if one guy is able to keep her heart out of my reach like that, what's to say another guy can't come around and do the same thing. I know I have an over-active imagination and that's exactly what this is. I feel perfectly fine about things most days when she seems so perfectly happy with me, but the days when things like this happen send me in completely the opposite direction.
Sorry about the lengthy post but I felt the need to vent.
I talked her friend into getting her out of the house around noon yesterday to go shopping for their house next year. Thursday night I had scored their spare key when we went out drinking and just opted not to give it back so I could get in to her place in case nobody was there. I parked my car around the corner so she wouldn't see it. I had bought 2 dozen roses with which half were used to make rose petals and the other stayed the way they were. I went into her room, lit all her candles, spread the petals on her bed and floor, put the other dozen in a vase on her dresser, turned on the CD I had burned her for christmas and waited for her to get back. When she got back I ran and hid behind the door to her basement and waited for her to go into her room and when she did I came from behind the door and stood right behind her (wearing a suit mind you). She was very happy and actually told me that was the first time she'd ever been truly surprised by a b/f before. Later on we discovered rose petals bleed if left around for too long....her comforter was kinda ruined but she said it was still worth it. We went to P.F. Chang's and it was excellent. A good all around date.
this is where the venting process comes in at. Those of you who aren't interested shouldn't read further lol. Late last night we got into a discussion of how we feel and all that jazz. I had mentioned that my ultimate goal is to get to the point where I never have to wonder what would happen if the guy from Ireland she dated this past summer ever showed up again. After some questioning she came out and said that if he came back and was still interested and she felt the same way she did over the summer, that she would go back to him. Needless to say that really hurt, especially after a day of her praising me for being such a great guy blah blah blah. I don't think I ever have to worry about this guy randomly coming around again, but that doesn't mean what she said didn't bother me anyway. I had kinda told her that the whole situation felt like the movie "The Notebook" (for those of you who have seen it). I mentioned I kinda felt like the girl's fiance from the movie and things would unfold exactly like the movie if she ever decided to visit Ireland(which she has always wanted to do anyway) or if he ever started e-mailing her again. For those of you who haven't seen the movie I'll just say that he isn't a good character to feel like.
I really don't think I have to worry about this guy, but if one guy is able to keep her heart out of my reach like that, what's to say another guy can't come around and do the same thing. I know I have an over-active imagination and that's exactly what this is. I feel perfectly fine about things most days when she seems so perfectly happy with me, but the days when things like this happen send me in completely the opposite direction.
Sorry about the lengthy post but I felt the need to vent.