Procratination
Ok, So I guess since I made one of these I better get some use out of it. And this entry is going to be a lot of bitching on my part, b/c hey isn't that what these are for? Anyways, I absolutely HATE SXU, I wish so badly that I was back at NIU, I feel as though I lost all my friends from there b/c I haven't been good at keeping in touch with them, but they haven't been good at it either. This past month I felt pretty betrayed by them as well, considering we all talked about going on Spring break together b/c we have the same break, yet as it was getting closer to spring break I noticed they all had countdowns in their profiles..I was never asked if I wanted to go. Maybe it is childish or jealousy on my part but I was really hurt by that. Then this past weekend Kevin breaks the news to me that he has virtually no choice but to move in with 3 girls and another guy b/c otherwise he has no where to live next year. GREAT! As if I wasn't insecure enough already, I now have to worry about his living situation for next year. I mean he will be living in a real life Real World house. I know that I shouldn't worry about it b/c I know he would never do anything to hurt me like that but then again u never know, although being drunk is never an excuse to do things, it happens. I just need to realize that hey if he wants to cheat on me..whatever it will be his loss right? And in that case then things weren't meant to be between us...Ugh! I dunno anymore. I hate school! I hate living at home after being away for 3 years. I hate the fact that I am 60 miles away from someone that means so much to me and that I get to see him on weekends if I am lucky. Granted we talk every day but I dunno..it just sux and I hate it.