This Is Who I Really Am
The topic I want you to roll with, though, is who you want to be. Put at the top of the page the line “This Is Who I Really Am” (fitting, no?) Then start to write.
DO NOT say who you are in terms of physically or demographics.
If you were unbound by physical limitations, societal expectations, etc who are you?
In air ...
I'm curious.
I'm a student, a scholar, and an observer.
I'm introverted.
I'm a thinker.
I like words.
I'm a bit witty.
I'm sarcastic and have a dark sense of humor.
I'm better in writing then in speech.
I like to process things.
I love to make connections between disparate things.
I like recording and documenting.
I like being able to access knowledge - both in my head and filed away somewhere.
I like to be the person people turn to for info and advice.
I like hypothetical.
I love fantasy universes with their own self-contained sets of rules.
I love stories - books, movies, tv, music.
I love poetry when it speaks to me. Not too abstract, though.
I love layers of meaning, reading between the lines, shades of grey, double entendres.
I value intelligence and knowledge.
I like categorizing things.
I like putting things in mental boxes, although I try not to be rigid about it.
I'd rather have 10 distinct boxes than a continuum from 1 to 10.
I like thinking outside the box, but that only makes me create new boxes.
I hate things that defy labeling.
In water ...
I care, too much sometimes.
I do better with animals than with humans.
I'm a cat person.
I like reading body language.
I love deep "windows to the soul" eyes, but I'm not always good with eye contact.
I'm an intuitive, not a sensor.
I love music.
As a kid I loved to spin around and make myself dizzy.
I love the ocean. I used to love to swim.
I like the rules to grow to match the times.
I like to think of myself as open minded and accepting of those different from myself.
I have a complicated relationship with faith and spirituality.
I lean towards doubt, but I want to be proven wrong.
I have always been fascinated by ESP. A fifth sense. A deeper connection. A deeper meaning.
I refuse to play by rules that written long ago and have been proven wrong.
I don't like to be dictated to.
I love freedom.
I love art, but I respond more to the more grounded art. The more recognizable. The less abstract.
I love flowery language and big words.
I value individuality.
I prefer individuals and small groups for interaction, and to some extent observation.
When I go beyond a small group, I depend more on boxes and predictive behavior.
I love mysteries. I love people who can surprise you, but I'm not fond of surprises.
I don't like cruelty.
I find much humor to be nothing but cruelty.
I pull for the underdog.
I feel the pain of those who are outsiders, who are underdogs, who are disadvantaged.
I don't like the status quo.
I respect the road not taken.
I'm not as physically demonstrative as I like in person, but I do well in writing.
I try to wait for the perfect moment sometimes. Sometimes it doesn't come.
I prefer to know what is coming, the broad strokes, but like to be surprised by the nuances.
I'm sensual and mentally sexual.
I like comfort in clothing, in surroundings, in companionship, in food.
I like characters, but I don't always like people.
I'm attracted to big hearts, mental strength, and intelligence.
I love stream of consciousness writing and talks.
I like jumping subjects and making connections.
I like to know what makes people tick. What they're passionate about.
I don't want to be out of my head. Head in the clouds, but never a cloudy head.
I appreciate clarity.
I overindulge in the sensual.
When you say dance, I think of free form. Alone in the dark. Spinning and swaying.
I don't like fear for fear's sake.
I don't like the adrenalin rush.
I like yin and yang. Balance.
I like lines in the sand and the fact that we can move them.
I like power dynamics. Control. Trust.
I like pleasure and pain to blend.
I'm attracted to thinkers and discoverers and people who help other people.
To artists. To creativity.
I want to move people.
I prefer to know.
I like bluntness more than evasion.
Hard truths delivered with kindness.
But truths, not persistent societal fantasies.
I'm drawn to the ancient past, not the immediate past.
I'm drawn to the future, but the distant future, not the immediate future.
I'd rather dream of a world 100 years from now than make a 5 year plan.
I'd rather hear about ancient battles than strife in the Middle East.
I love archetypes.
I love neverending stories.
I'm drawn to the bittersweet and the sad, the lonely and the broken.
I'd rather be fulfilled than happy.
I'd rather be deep, than shallow.
I love depth first learning and knowledge. Know a lot about a little. Specialists.
I love escapism, but hate anesthetizing culture.
I love the rain, thunderstorms. As long as they don't cause outages & accidents.
I like creature comforts. I don't need luxury, but I don't like roughing it either.
I'm more educated than domesticated.
I like my alpha males sensitive and androgynous. I like pretty boys.
I hate violence and the play acting of violence that is sports.
I like puzzles and logic games.
I don't like us vs them when the groups are defined by location, religion, looks, or accidents of birth.
I like us vs them with respect to values and morals and worldview.
But I wish there were less them. That we could all belong in the us category.
I love Mars. (Took me long enough.)
I love lone wolves.
Paradise is "What Dreams May Come". Being who we wish to appear as. Having instant access to all those we love and those who love us.
Paradise is an endless Mars concert.
A peaceful beach after sunset.
A neverending buffet.
A dance that never ends.
Sitting around in groups like they did in ancient Greece and discussing anything and everything.
Storytelling and listening to stories.
Hugs and kisses.
Children laughing.
A cat's purr.
A steady spring rain.
A warm tropical thunderstorm.
Warm wind in your hair. A cool breeze on a hot day.
Cuddling.
Exploring your lover's body.
Letting your love explore yours.
Letting your lover take you beyond pleasure, beyond pain.
Running free. Flying. Dancing. Spinning.
Leaving the trivial, the mundane, and the superficial behind.
Infinite possibilities.