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My emotions have been thrown all out of whack the past couple of weeks. I'm unsure of a lot of different aspects of my life that have cause me to be an emotional frenzy. For the most part, I can contain how I feel in a relatively healthy manner, and my temperament is fairly even. We all go through ups and downs and others in our lives need to respect those highs and lows.
I throw people for a loop when I show my not-so-happy side. I get comments like, "What's wrong? You're always so happy," or "You can't be down, you're always happy."
I'm not depressed or anything, just contemplative, and I know this because I don't constantly want to hurl at the thought of everything, especially food...just smelling it makes me ill when in a totally down state! And right now I'm starving.
Most of what I'm dealing with are personal relationships. I've been distant some from of my best friends, and I'm not sure why. At the same time, I've created new connections that are nice and are helping me experience new people. Along those lines, I need to know and need to figure out exactly where I stand with people, which can be a little difficult at times. (ack...I'm having a hard time putting these thoughts into words!)
Anyway...instead of rambling on and not making much sense, I'll end this for now. It would make more sense to put of posting this until I am clearer in my thoughts, but this is a journal, and shouldn't always have to be structured and perfect.