Another sleepless night.
These days the evenings are getting more and more restless. Every day I am so optimistic, but when night sets in, all I can do is worry. Lacking a job hurts a lot right now and makes me very worried. At night I think of all the things that will go wrong if this lasts too long, and I never end up with enough sleep. As a result I end up going out pretending to go to class in the morning, sleeping some more in the car, and then doing job stuff and going to night class. I have a good work history, so hopefully I will find something before too much longer. And even if I find a job, I am getting worried I might not make enough. *sigh*
Also I am kinda worried becasue a few things here and there are starting to turn up missing. My first two DVD's of Kenshin, my first RvB DVD, my copy of Star Ocean Till the End of Time. I am sure I probally lent these to people at some point or another, but I cant remember for the life of me who. (PS if youa re reading this and you are one of the people I lent one of these formentioned items to, please let me know) However there are a couple of people who have been in my recent aquaintance who I dont see anymore, and probally wont see again, that could have them *sigh* and here after I finished Xenosaga and Shin Megami Tensei Nocturne, I was going to go in and finish off Star Ocean.
I hate being uncertain like this. It drives me up the wall, and it really screws up my head. Things had been going so well the last couple of months, and now its all fallen apart. If nothing else, I take pride that I have maintained my apartment at a high level of cleanliness for 3 weeks straight now. Its becoming habit ^_^ And that can be nothing but good ^_^
Anyawy I am gonna stop rambling. And I am gonna try to get to sleep. I think tomorrow I will just give up and go back to Sears and talk to Matt. I heard there is gonna be an opening in 57 starting next week.
Night all.
Also I am kinda worried becasue a few things here and there are starting to turn up missing. My first two DVD's of Kenshin, my first RvB DVD, my copy of Star Ocean Till the End of Time. I am sure I probally lent these to people at some point or another, but I cant remember for the life of me who. (PS if youa re reading this and you are one of the people I lent one of these formentioned items to, please let me know) However there are a couple of people who have been in my recent aquaintance who I dont see anymore, and probally wont see again, that could have them *sigh* and here after I finished Xenosaga and Shin Megami Tensei Nocturne, I was going to go in and finish off Star Ocean.
I hate being uncertain like this. It drives me up the wall, and it really screws up my head. Things had been going so well the last couple of months, and now its all fallen apart. If nothing else, I take pride that I have maintained my apartment at a high level of cleanliness for 3 weeks straight now. Its becoming habit ^_^ And that can be nothing but good ^_^
Anyawy I am gonna stop rambling. And I am gonna try to get to sleep. I think tomorrow I will just give up and go back to Sears and talk to Matt. I heard there is gonna be an opening in 57 starting next week.
Night all.