Damn......
What am I still doing up? I am exhausted, I have to get up early, and yet I lay in bed for an hour and still cant sleep. Just too much on my mind I guess, and nothing I really feel comfortable talking about in here, lest it fall on wrong ears or be taking wrong.
Why did I get on here then? Well, I guess its better to talk about something than nothing at all, so I will just kinda fill in on how things are going in the world of Josh.
School......well school is school. I told John to stop worrying about only scheduling me to close anymore, I dont care at this point if I go to class in the morning or at night. In a way night is better, I get to sleep an hour longer before I have to go to work in the morning. School starts at 8, work at 9 ^_^.
Work...work has been going really well. I am really happy where I am. I sometimes worry that I am not living up to John's expectations, but when I asked him lately what I could improve on, there really wasn't anything, and it was mostly stuff that I had let slide just because durring the holidays, there was no time for it. He said that overall I am doing a great job and am, in fact, helping him as well in that I remind him about doing paperwork and completing the red book, which he is uaually kinda bad at. Inventory went espically well, I am glad to say. We actually ended up .14 OVER the shrink line. Not bad at all ^_^
So yeah it seems like I am doing a good job. And all the bills are getting paid with no real difficulty. Another good sign.
Life.
Life could be better.
Don't get me wrong, I am happy. I have made several new friends through my job. However I have gotten distant with some of my other friends, and I miss our relationships. There is one in particular that stands out, and is in truth why I cant sleep tonight.
Well look at that, looks like I am gonna talk about it anyway.
I wont use names or anything, but if the person I am talking about is reading this, I am pretty sure they will know I am talking about them. When we first met, we were just anime buddies. But it didnt take long for the friendship to get further than that. But what was important to me was that we could just sit and talk. Talk about life, the world, things that are bothering us, just talk in general. Circumstances are such that in the last 9 months or so we havent really gotten to do that anymore and I really miss our conversations.
To me, friendship is very important. When I develop a friendship to the point where I feel comfortable talking to them about pretty much anything that is bothering me, it mean a lot to me. Its not easy for me to do either. To date, I can think of mabye....4 people I know who have earned that trust. That is why this bothers me so much. I know there are many reasons for it, we both work a lot, and are almost always busy. And even when we do get to spend time together....well....we just dont really have the oppertunity. What can I say.
Anyway I hope my venting here will let me get to sleep. After the insanity of tonight, god I need it. I just hope things get better. I miss talking to my friend.
PS, to anyone who actually read this........thanks. It means a lot to me to know that there are people out there who care.
Why did I get on here then? Well, I guess its better to talk about something than nothing at all, so I will just kinda fill in on how things are going in the world of Josh.
School......well school is school. I told John to stop worrying about only scheduling me to close anymore, I dont care at this point if I go to class in the morning or at night. In a way night is better, I get to sleep an hour longer before I have to go to work in the morning. School starts at 8, work at 9 ^_^.
Work...work has been going really well. I am really happy where I am. I sometimes worry that I am not living up to John's expectations, but when I asked him lately what I could improve on, there really wasn't anything, and it was mostly stuff that I had let slide just because durring the holidays, there was no time for it. He said that overall I am doing a great job and am, in fact, helping him as well in that I remind him about doing paperwork and completing the red book, which he is uaually kinda bad at. Inventory went espically well, I am glad to say. We actually ended up .14 OVER the shrink line. Not bad at all ^_^
So yeah it seems like I am doing a good job. And all the bills are getting paid with no real difficulty. Another good sign.
Life.
Life could be better.
Don't get me wrong, I am happy. I have made several new friends through my job. However I have gotten distant with some of my other friends, and I miss our relationships. There is one in particular that stands out, and is in truth why I cant sleep tonight.
Well look at that, looks like I am gonna talk about it anyway.
I wont use names or anything, but if the person I am talking about is reading this, I am pretty sure they will know I am talking about them. When we first met, we were just anime buddies. But it didnt take long for the friendship to get further than that. But what was important to me was that we could just sit and talk. Talk about life, the world, things that are bothering us, just talk in general. Circumstances are such that in the last 9 months or so we havent really gotten to do that anymore and I really miss our conversations.
To me, friendship is very important. When I develop a friendship to the point where I feel comfortable talking to them about pretty much anything that is bothering me, it mean a lot to me. Its not easy for me to do either. To date, I can think of mabye....4 people I know who have earned that trust. That is why this bothers me so much. I know there are many reasons for it, we both work a lot, and are almost always busy. And even when we do get to spend time together....well....we just dont really have the oppertunity. What can I say.
Anyway I hope my venting here will let me get to sleep. After the insanity of tonight, god I need it. I just hope things get better. I miss talking to my friend.
PS, to anyone who actually read this........thanks. It means a lot to me to know that there are people out there who care.