Flow sweetly, hang heavy
I woke up @ 4am this morning. Totally not by choice.
Pains woke me up - Amber's investigating it.
She thinks there is something very wrong w/ me.
I guess I should head to the doctor.
It's funny how this has been going on for several years
& it's not until someone says that it doesn't sound right
that you begin to think yourself that it's really not.
Well I'm not tired currently.
My body is aching all over.
Nothing a little 'Hysteria' won't fix.
Yeah Yeah Yeah's new album is amazingly beautiful.
Released at a perfect time in my life.
I don't honestly have much to say.
23 soon, not overly excited.
I am far more confident w/ my niece Layla.
Growing up without kids around
has rendered me almost useless.
It's a bit disheartening.
Anyway I got a lot of confidence yesterday.
I was walking around the shopping centre w/ Layla in a sling,
Amber couldn't get the smile off her face.
Amber's mum & older sister were off shopping
& the new mother Louise, got some pampering.
I never realised how hard it is to find time for yourself
when a little bub is around.
I have to say, some women gave me glares.
Maybe they thought I was too young?
I honestly didn't understand it.
The smiles outweighed the glares.
Perhaps if Amber was holding my hand
then we would get more glares.
The important thing is that I didn't even care
what people were thinking because
I was all about the bub.
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