f-book message to alana, but too huge so i figure/hope she'll read it here, heh
yesterday was good. focused on breath. sprinted and got into my body via jogging with good posture and a loose face (apparently, i've grimaced every time i've ever ran, as far as i can remember). worked canvassing and did well & focused on my breath & posture and those of the folks at the door as well - an interesting consciousness-expanding 2 person game, heh.
realized i'd been in hell in my mind for years, hating myself as everything i dreamed of came true mostly how i'd imagined it though with some discrepancies, and never letting it sink in long enough to feel it out/be deeply thankful for it and always wanting more while being on guard and always waiting for some hidden punch around the corner, so never feeling safe enough to work with it and refine/heal/grow with it... patience, safety. ...so i got a bunch of herbs from people's for long term stress & depression, all the stuff that people's had that i didn't yet have from that section from the male herbal that ariel read to alana and i over dinner awhile back: st. johns wort, damiana, licorice stix, skullcap, sumac berries, american ginseng and devil's club. when i got home, i gushed to tom about all the b.s. stress that i'd been accumulating for years and years on end - it was such a cathartic release. i think because of his co-counseling experience, he's learned to listen to other people's issues without taking them in personally, which allows for that catharsis to take place on it's own in other people without giving them advice or inciting a sympathetic response in himself. it was rad and i look forward to doing co-counseling stuff with tom to learn how to be a better healer and to help heal his male self, too (there's men's co-counseling and i think women's? or maybe just mixed gender and women's...? from their website: http://www.cci-usa.org/what_is.htm there's one group in long island: New YorkLong Island, NYMeets twice monthly
Contact Lori M:
631-682-7045
or miracleme7@yahoo.com for Location, Directions & Dates
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realized i'd been in hell in my mind for years, hating myself as everything i dreamed of came true mostly how i'd imagined it though with some discrepancies, and never letting it sink in long enough to feel it out/be deeply thankful for it and always wanting more while being on guard and always waiting for some hidden punch around the corner, so never feeling safe enough to work with it and refine/heal/grow with it... patience, safety. ...so i got a bunch of herbs from people's for long term stress & depression, all the stuff that people's had that i didn't yet have from that section from the male herbal that ariel read to alana and i over dinner awhile back: st. johns wort, damiana, licorice stix, skullcap, sumac berries, american ginseng and devil's club. when i got home, i gushed to tom about all the b.s. stress that i'd been accumulating for years and years on end - it was such a cathartic release. i think because of his co-counseling experience, he's learned to listen to other people's issues without taking them in personally, which allows for that catharsis to take place on it's own in other people without giving them advice or inciting a sympathetic response in himself. it was rad and i look forward to doing co-counseling stuff with tom to learn how to be a better healer and to help heal his male self, too (there's men's co-counseling and i think women's? or maybe just mixed gender and women's...? from their website: http://www.cci-usa.org/what_is.htm there's one group in long island: New YorkLong Island, NYMeets twice monthly
Contact Lori M:
631-682-7045
or miracleme7@yahoo.com for Location, Directions & Dates
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