I spent today catching up with myself
today and yesterday is the first personal time i've given myself in over a month. i still have more to do and lots to talk about.
today in an effort towards cultural continuity and remembrance, i downloaded my music onto Julia's computer (i hope she doesn't mind) and loaded songs of friends (mostly) onto my new music playing cellphone. I don't have a memory card for it, so it holds this much:
Bigger Princess - Homesick
The Eskalators - Green Sky
Pink Type - Lightning Bugs
Yayahoni - True Love is Not Nice (herman dune cover of jonathan richman)
I'd like to have defense by no courage, a song by noah britton, and a song from kate, not sure which ones - i'll have to get them off of cd's i have.
i feel like this one part of noah's entry is becoming more and more true for me:
"the human response here is to feel and care about the people you know who you care about more than the rest
and for once i agree with that decision
so
if you are someone i love
i will care immensely if anything terrible happens to you and do whatever i can to help
but if you are not someone i love
i cannot afford to care about your problems any more than i can about the problems of some korean guy i'll never meet, or some african woman i'll never hear about
however
of course i feel a permeating concern for the entire planet and everyone on it
but this doesn't mean i'm going to ruin my fun because of that
i'm going to try to forget all of these things that i am not going to do anything about
because, shit, do you think some starving guy in china needs to worry about whether your car got stolen? or your friend committed suicide? or you have a terminal illness? man, that guy has enough problems as it is. and so does everyone else.
so
pick your battles"
also matty pop chart's song "the world out there"
i also remembered what makes me awesome has nothing to do with whether i'm good at anything or have lots of experience with anything or necessarily what i do or say. it's about the way i go about doing everything.
ariel helped clarify this for me, and to him i am indebted. someone mentioned in consolation, "well, your kayak-building is coming along nicely." and he replied, "yeah, thanks, but building a kayak has nothing to do with my sense of self-worth." which is genius.
I think maybe i've suffered enough for my sins, haha. I'm totally ready for the year of the Earth Ox, which only comes every 60 years:
"The Year of the Earth Ox evokes stability and dependability. The Ox is a practical work animal, while the Earth element is steady and firm. Together, they create a kind of plodding energy that can be exasperating. Still, progress will be made in 2009; it will occur in slow, barely perceptible increments. If you stay patient and keep your nose to the grindstone, you will make the most of this ponderous energy." more from tarot.com's chinese horoscopes page.
today in an effort towards cultural continuity and remembrance, i downloaded my music onto Julia's computer (i hope she doesn't mind) and loaded songs of friends (mostly) onto my new music playing cellphone. I don't have a memory card for it, so it holds this much:
Bigger Princess - Homesick
The Eskalators - Green Sky
Pink Type - Lightning Bugs
Yayahoni - True Love is Not Nice (herman dune cover of jonathan richman)
I'd like to have defense by no courage, a song by noah britton, and a song from kate, not sure which ones - i'll have to get them off of cd's i have.
i feel like this one part of noah's entry is becoming more and more true for me:
"the human response here is to feel and care about the people you know who you care about more than the rest
and for once i agree with that decision
so
if you are someone i love
i will care immensely if anything terrible happens to you and do whatever i can to help
but if you are not someone i love
i cannot afford to care about your problems any more than i can about the problems of some korean guy i'll never meet, or some african woman i'll never hear about
however
of course i feel a permeating concern for the entire planet and everyone on it
but this doesn't mean i'm going to ruin my fun because of that
i'm going to try to forget all of these things that i am not going to do anything about
because, shit, do you think some starving guy in china needs to worry about whether your car got stolen? or your friend committed suicide? or you have a terminal illness? man, that guy has enough problems as it is. and so does everyone else.
so
pick your battles"
also matty pop chart's song "the world out there"
i also remembered what makes me awesome has nothing to do with whether i'm good at anything or have lots of experience with anything or necessarily what i do or say. it's about the way i go about doing everything.
ariel helped clarify this for me, and to him i am indebted. someone mentioned in consolation, "well, your kayak-building is coming along nicely." and he replied, "yeah, thanks, but building a kayak has nothing to do with my sense of self-worth." which is genius.
I think maybe i've suffered enough for my sins, haha. I'm totally ready for the year of the Earth Ox, which only comes every 60 years:
"The Year of the Earth Ox evokes stability and dependability. The Ox is a practical work animal, while the Earth element is steady and firm. Together, they create a kind of plodding energy that can be exasperating. Still, progress will be made in 2009; it will occur in slow, barely perceptible increments. If you stay patient and keep your nose to the grindstone, you will make the most of this ponderous energy." more from tarot.com's chinese horoscopes page.