and now to translate and finish that...
Ok Duane, since you want to have truth time...LET'S DO THIS
You are a very frustrating person, you know that? I hate the fact that, yes, I am in love with you, but you act like I am meaningless to you. If that is the case then say so. The only reason I started dating David, is because he is willing to give me the support I need for a relationship.
You take me out, you are sleeping with me, you really are putting in the same, for lack of a better word, work as if we were together. And the fact that when people assume it, you do not correct them. But when it is me, or in conversation with me, whatever the case may be, I am not good enough for you to be with. I was not before and I am not now. That is perfectly fine if you were man enough to say it.
I made the decision to take the Organizing Labor job and to get as far away from you as possible when I realized that you really do not see what you do to other people. You really have no clue as to how the things you say and do affect other people. When it is brought to your attention, then that person (namely me) is wrong, crazy, or does not know what they are talking about. To be honest I am quite fed up with this, that again is why I took the job.
Of course this letter will have the same effect as anything else I have tried to do. It will fall on deaf ears and I will be wrong again. I am tired of you making me wrong, I am not always the problem. And damn boy, sex is not going to make up for everything I am upset about! You keep saying that you did not abandon me as a friend, that it will be me to do so to you. That is completely not true...you did abandon me. The difference is I know when it happened, I just did not want to admit it.
The real abandonment from you began when I went into the hospital before leaving for Tennessee. It completed when I became pregnant after Brittany.
To tell truth, I started this letter a few weeks ago, but never found the courage to finish it. I finish it now because I have to...
Maybe Sarah is right and I am whole-heartedly in love with you and by some small miracle you might care about me, but I cannot and will not wait any longer. So yeah I am dating Lissa and David, that's a REAL open-relationship, I am best friends with Malachi, he will not betray me, and now I am starting a REAL relationship with John, he honestly believes that I am worth something other than sex.
I am not berating you, but your words contradict your actions. "I'm your friend and you love me and I have the potential to be more..." but I embaress you, I ain't good enough to go out with unless it's taking you somewhere to eat or I am spending the money, I pretty much am something for you to fuck and then treat any type of way.
I told you, if you can't answer me honestly when you are sober, I don't want to hear it when you are drunk. When I try to talk to you, you don't want to hear it, but then you will frustrate me to the point of no return and THEN want to talk. I never asked you to change anything about yourself, I accepted you for who you were and tried to help you with what you wanted to do in life. You didn't want my help, and you still refuse to accept me...
That's fine, we can still be friends and occasionally hang out, if you so choose to, but honestly after this Saturday, I'm not sure what to expect from you.
F orever A Queen
A lways His Princess
D addy's Baby Girl
E very Bit A Lady
D isrespect Will NOT Be Tolerated
You are a very frustrating person, you know that? I hate the fact that, yes, I am in love with you, but you act like I am meaningless to you. If that is the case then say so. The only reason I started dating David, is because he is willing to give me the support I need for a relationship.
You take me out, you are sleeping with me, you really are putting in the same, for lack of a better word, work as if we were together. And the fact that when people assume it, you do not correct them. But when it is me, or in conversation with me, whatever the case may be, I am not good enough for you to be with. I was not before and I am not now. That is perfectly fine if you were man enough to say it.
I made the decision to take the Organizing Labor job and to get as far away from you as possible when I realized that you really do not see what you do to other people. You really have no clue as to how the things you say and do affect other people. When it is brought to your attention, then that person (namely me) is wrong, crazy, or does not know what they are talking about. To be honest I am quite fed up with this, that again is why I took the job.
Of course this letter will have the same effect as anything else I have tried to do. It will fall on deaf ears and I will be wrong again. I am tired of you making me wrong, I am not always the problem. And damn boy, sex is not going to make up for everything I am upset about! You keep saying that you did not abandon me as a friend, that it will be me to do so to you. That is completely not true...you did abandon me. The difference is I know when it happened, I just did not want to admit it.
The real abandonment from you began when I went into the hospital before leaving for Tennessee. It completed when I became pregnant after Brittany.
To tell truth, I started this letter a few weeks ago, but never found the courage to finish it. I finish it now because I have to...
Maybe Sarah is right and I am whole-heartedly in love with you and by some small miracle you might care about me, but I cannot and will not wait any longer. So yeah I am dating Lissa and David, that's a REAL open-relationship, I am best friends with Malachi, he will not betray me, and now I am starting a REAL relationship with John, he honestly believes that I am worth something other than sex.
I am not berating you, but your words contradict your actions. "I'm your friend and you love me and I have the potential to be more..." but I embaress you, I ain't good enough to go out with unless it's taking you somewhere to eat or I am spending the money, I pretty much am something for you to fuck and then treat any type of way.
I told you, if you can't answer me honestly when you are sober, I don't want to hear it when you are drunk. When I try to talk to you, you don't want to hear it, but then you will frustrate me to the point of no return and THEN want to talk. I never asked you to change anything about yourself, I accepted you for who you were and tried to help you with what you wanted to do in life. You didn't want my help, and you still refuse to accept me...
That's fine, we can still be friends and occasionally hang out, if you so choose to, but honestly after this Saturday, I'm not sure what to expect from you.
F orever A Queen
A lways His Princess
D addy's Baby Girl
E very Bit A Lady
D isrespect Will NOT Be Tolerated