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today started off great no food whatsoever just water and lots of it. Then I fuckin went out to eat with my mom and her boyfriend and I only ate a salad, but they ordered chips and salsa and I ate some of that
I AM NEVER GONNA LOOSE MORE WEIGHT AT THIS RATE!
now im going to work my ass of at the gym
I just suck at this whole fasting thing cuz I get all shakey and lightheaded even after one day. I just really wish for continuous will power. I have my ups and downs. I simply can not wait til I go away to college this fall. Then I will surround myself with no food. Rather than havin people push it at me constantly...
FUCKING sucks...I need a buddy...anybody?
Tomorrow is my exboyfriends bday party which I must attend and IM GONNA LOOK so horrible. My mom freaks out at me constantly about my issues shes like I bet not one person would consider you overweight. BUT DUH its me. I feel fat I wanna be skinnier I want to be so tiny Just because I will prolly be smaller than all the damn girls at the party doesnt mean that I will feel thin. AND that is all that matters to me-What I think. I like when people give me compliments but its my feelings that really count.
Well Im off to try to burn off the calories that have polluted my body!!
--Chris_FATTY
I AM NEVER GONNA LOOSE MORE WEIGHT AT THIS RATE!
now im going to work my ass of at the gym
I just suck at this whole fasting thing cuz I get all shakey and lightheaded even after one day. I just really wish for continuous will power. I have my ups and downs. I simply can not wait til I go away to college this fall. Then I will surround myself with no food. Rather than havin people push it at me constantly...
FUCKING sucks...I need a buddy...anybody?
Tomorrow is my exboyfriends bday party which I must attend and IM GONNA LOOK so horrible. My mom freaks out at me constantly about my issues shes like I bet not one person would consider you overweight. BUT DUH its me. I feel fat I wanna be skinnier I want to be so tiny Just because I will prolly be smaller than all the damn girls at the party doesnt mean that I will feel thin. AND that is all that matters to me-What I think. I like when people give me compliments but its my feelings that really count.
Well Im off to try to burn off the calories that have polluted my body!!
--Chris_FATTY