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[mjslckr]

so my mom called today, and was just talking to me about stuff and like what was happening and what not. and at the end of the conversation she said "love ya babe" and i was like alright bye...i dont think i have told my mom i loved her...like ever. like maybe when i was like really little but i cant come up with a time that i remember saying it. i feel really bad saying i hate my mom i hate my mom, because she is my mom and she gave birth to me. but its true i hate her, and i really think she doesnt like me either because she is so mean to me and all me and my parents do these days is fight and im soo sick of it. im tired of everything and i hate saying that but i really think im gonna be one of those people that when they move out they arent gonna talk to their parents anymore. im just gonna completely lose contact and as much as that sucks its true. i dont like them, i dont think they treat me very well, or fairly at all. i have no clue what to do. it just doesnt seem right anymore, and as much as i hate hate HATE to say it, its the truth. i really really really wish i had one of those relationships with my mom that i could just tell her anything and everything, but i cant she used to be one of those partyers where her parents would be backing out of the drive way and she would have people coming in the back door, i mean honestly who does she think i am. i have thought about all her mistakes and im a teenager, she experimented when she was young now im young, its my turn. let me lead my life, this is my only childhood im gonna have let me live it the way i want too.
i guess things dont always work out the way you want them too...but they should suck this much...