Funerals
Today, I went to my first funeral. It was technically a viewing, but the feelings were intense. When I entered the building, the atmosphere felt thick. There was a lot of tension in the air, and you could feel the mixed emotions in your skin. It was strangely warm, but felt cold, a feeling hard to describe in words.
The ceremony began, and people were holding back their emotions. Once the name of Sophia was mentioned, feelings of everyone began to seep from their withholdings. Although it was completely silent, cries of emotion could be heard.
It was very difficult to stand in line to view the casket. Although people around me were getting up to the line, I felt as if my legs were encompassed with cement. I eventually brought myself up and witnessed the sobs of people passing. When I viewed the body, I felt an aura, but one that was different than any others. It was as if there was an invisible aura radiating, but it was very thin and cold.
Although I didn't know Sophia well, I found it hard to hold back feelings of remorse. I hugged the family members and just felt complete warmth for them. I attempted to empathize as well as I could, but no one could feel the same emotions as them. After the viewing, there was a weight bearing lifted from my shoulders. I realized that my eye was twitching from the stress I felt while trying to control my different ways of thinking. I also found myself grinding my teeth.
At the end, I had a headache from the mind-jarring experience. I truly felt that she passed in peace, and the Lord allowed her soul to continue living.
The ceremony began, and people were holding back their emotions. Once the name of Sophia was mentioned, feelings of everyone began to seep from their withholdings. Although it was completely silent, cries of emotion could be heard.
It was very difficult to stand in line to view the casket. Although people around me were getting up to the line, I felt as if my legs were encompassed with cement. I eventually brought myself up and witnessed the sobs of people passing. When I viewed the body, I felt an aura, but one that was different than any others. It was as if there was an invisible aura radiating, but it was very thin and cold.
Although I didn't know Sophia well, I found it hard to hold back feelings of remorse. I hugged the family members and just felt complete warmth for them. I attempted to empathize as well as I could, but no one could feel the same emotions as them. After the viewing, there was a weight bearing lifted from my shoulders. I realized that my eye was twitching from the stress I felt while trying to control my different ways of thinking. I also found myself grinding my teeth.
At the end, I had a headache from the mind-jarring experience. I truly felt that she passed in peace, and the Lord allowed her soul to continue living.