venting session ?!?... i lost count

[mjmusic]

Ok so yesterday was my birthday, got a call or card from everyone except Andy. I mean thats fine I was only a part of your life for 2 years and then all of a sudden I mean nothing to him, thats just bullshit. Honestly if ur reading this you are really immature. I figured you'd at least have the guts to wish me a happy birthday but no apparently you're better than i. I mean one day you can help a friend in need and the next you cant even wish them a happy birthday that is pretty pathetic. Oh and then to make his family all hate me or whatever; I saw his sis today and said "hi" to her and she looked at me like dont even speak to me anymore. Fine mr and ms Im better than everyone else. Funny thing about all this is whenever someone says they wanna be friends still, its all a bunch of lies. I mean you give them the space they need, ocassionally call to see how things are and they're all bent out of shape. I mean hes still mad about something but wont say Boo to me. I think the main reason why he broke up with me is so he didnt have to be around me anymore which is perfectly fine. I've stuck up for him when people said oh hes such a jerk and yada yada; but I guess they are all right. I can do so much better and even tho I still care about him in my heart; all i can think aobut is all the cruel things hes doing to this "friendship" or whatever. I honestly wanted him to be happy and all, but right now I just dont care anymore. I dont wish him ill or anything but I hope oneday he comes to terms and realizes he screwed up the best thing he ever had; and when if he ever asks me back I dunno what I would do. Maybe I'll put him thru the pain hes put me in for so long.

Well dunno much else really, gotta get my beauty rest for my DATE 2morrow nite. Anywhos hope all are doing well.

BYEBYE~
Mal