Review of Ohno 2012 in a letter type.....
Dear Ohno san,
I've been one of your ardent fans since I discovered your lovely voice and hips on that fateful night in 2006. In fact I probably am a little too old to be so called fangirling. But since the word womanfan isn't in this set of vocab, i'll stick to the first. Let me express my thoughts for once while I have this time.
It was child who needed comfort that found you but a woman with a brain who stayed.And at one time I think she was crushing on you real bad. Couldn't help it. But then She grew up real fast in RL, although a part of her clung to this fantasy of laughter and joy. This child was me. As RL intruded and opened my eyes, so did I see the Human part of you. Realized that you had so many things you show and yet hide and started to have something akin to my relationship with Livejournal.
Anyone who might read this might think ' such a sappy story blah blah'... And it is true. This is kind of sappy and corny altogether. But I find the best kind of therapy from the days stress when people including you make me laugh. Which leads me to the main point of this letter (that you will never read). 'What happened recently that made you fake your smiles and silence your laughter?' I don't really know you, but there are moments captured on camera when your eyes burn with resentment and your anger palpable. It's been quite frequent now and I think your group members also know this and cover for you. I understand how your group dynamics work and they deflect your blurbs. But somehow, it's your silence this time around that is more disturbing. More so than it was before. You smile, stand, talk and do all those things when the situation warrants it. But something seems to be missing. Something is bothering/ irritating you and believe me it shows to those who see you. I don't know what or who, but someday I hope that you will find a way to figure out how to solve/ face it.
And yes, call me selfish for stating this even probably delusional. But seriously, I want that funny man back. Even the silent one that spaces out. Because when I see you in your recent shows, I don't see you enjoying yourself even in silence. The gap is too great.
From a fan,
Me
I've been one of your ardent fans since I discovered your lovely voice and hips on that fateful night in 2006. In fact I probably am a little too old to be so called fangirling. But since the word womanfan isn't in this set of vocab, i'll stick to the first. Let me express my thoughts for once while I have this time.
It was child who needed comfort that found you but a woman with a brain who stayed.And at one time I think she was crushing on you real bad. Couldn't help it. But then She grew up real fast in RL, although a part of her clung to this fantasy of laughter and joy. This child was me. As RL intruded and opened my eyes, so did I see the Human part of you. Realized that you had so many things you show and yet hide and started to have something akin to my relationship with Livejournal.
Anyone who might read this might think ' such a sappy story blah blah'... And it is true. This is kind of sappy and corny altogether. But I find the best kind of therapy from the days stress when people including you make me laugh. Which leads me to the main point of this letter (that you will never read). 'What happened recently that made you fake your smiles and silence your laughter?' I don't really know you, but there are moments captured on camera when your eyes burn with resentment and your anger palpable. It's been quite frequent now and I think your group members also know this and cover for you. I understand how your group dynamics work and they deflect your blurbs. But somehow, it's your silence this time around that is more disturbing. More so than it was before. You smile, stand, talk and do all those things when the situation warrants it. But something seems to be missing. Something is bothering/ irritating you and believe me it shows to those who see you. I don't know what or who, but someday I hope that you will find a way to figure out how to solve/ face it.
And yes, call me selfish for stating this even probably delusional. But seriously, I want that funny man back. Even the silent one that spaces out. Because when I see you in your recent shows, I don't see you enjoying yourself even in silence. The gap is too great.
From a fan,
Me