why?
why do i do this? so i just had a huge conversation and it pretty much was focused on the fact that i'm a mess. i act like i'm 40 when i'm only 18. it's a sad thought but how am i suppose to act otherwise? i've become use to the fact that i'm usually the reliable one in the group and someone almost anyone can depend on. how can i just dop everything and go for the life that i probably should be living? i say that i'm careless whenever i have every care in the world on my mind. i can let fo of the past but that doesn't mean i still don't let it affect my future. there's too many things going on in my head at this time. the thing now is that i know what i want in life (or so i think) and now i need to figure out how to get it while still feeling real. it's not like it's too much to do, i just have to make everything so complicated. one day i will see how everything i do will pay off,....i just don't hope i'm alone when that comes.