OKAY
I've done it. I've finally killed enough time to be sick of killing time.
From now on, all of my activities will be preceded by the thought, "Would my idealized self do this? Will this help me to become my idealized self?"
But first I need to figure out what my idealized self is.
I've often told people that I don't have a direction in my life, and that I take a sort of sadistic pride in being beat. That's true. But while there is relatively little I want to do with my life, there is plenty that I want to BE.
I am realizing more and more that, since I was little, I have idolized the same types of figures as role-models. And I don't see why I can't push for them.
I think that I'm not far from some of those goals, but I am also nearly the opposite from others.
My idealized self knows a great deal more than me about people and about the world.
My idealized self has patience and compassion for others.
My idealized self speaks quietly, with great forethought, and perfect delivery.
My idealized self always has a humorous witticism or anecdote for the moment at hand.
My idealized self is not intimidated by a challenge. Or, at least, not intimidated out of action.
My idealized self engages in creative endeavors for the hell of it.
My idealized self reads as much as I did before I started wasting all my time.
My idealized self takes the time to appreciate art, no matter what form it takes.
My idealized self is always as composed as he is flustered.
My idealized self meters sociality with solitude.
My idealized self knows how to be a better person.
My idealized self is a proponent of freedom of information, energy independence, enlightened government and is an expert on how to establish them.
My idealized self is a good man to tell your secrets to.
My idealized self is awesome at this.
Basically I want to be Mark Twain.
Time to go read Flatland. Tomorrow, more job applications. Less internet. More self-improvement.
From now on, all of my activities will be preceded by the thought, "Would my idealized self do this? Will this help me to become my idealized self?"
But first I need to figure out what my idealized self is.
I've often told people that I don't have a direction in my life, and that I take a sort of sadistic pride in being beat. That's true. But while there is relatively little I want to do with my life, there is plenty that I want to BE.
I am realizing more and more that, since I was little, I have idolized the same types of figures as role-models. And I don't see why I can't push for them.
I think that I'm not far from some of those goals, but I am also nearly the opposite from others.
My idealized self knows a great deal more than me about people and about the world.
My idealized self has patience and compassion for others.
My idealized self speaks quietly, with great forethought, and perfect delivery.
My idealized self always has a humorous witticism or anecdote for the moment at hand.
My idealized self is not intimidated by a challenge. Or, at least, not intimidated out of action.
My idealized self engages in creative endeavors for the hell of it.
My idealized self reads as much as I did before I started wasting all my time.
My idealized self takes the time to appreciate art, no matter what form it takes.
My idealized self is always as composed as he is flustered.
My idealized self meters sociality with solitude.
My idealized self knows how to be a better person.
My idealized self is a proponent of freedom of information, energy independence, enlightened government and is an expert on how to establish them.
My idealized self is a good man to tell your secrets to.
My idealized self is awesome at this.
Basically I want to be Mark Twain.
Time to go read Flatland. Tomorrow, more job applications. Less internet. More self-improvement.