Why me.?
Ok first of all What the fck have I done to god to always be sick 24/7? OMG first on thursday I was barely breathing. Like seriously I was on my death bed. My brother was so worried about me. I dont think he can live without me LMAO but he was being so sweet and trying to help me. See I'm not the type of person to bitch and moan when ever I'm sick. When I went to Haiti on vacation I got Malaria and did not even went to the hospital because I did not feel like putting a damper on my family and having them to take me to the hospital and crap like that. But honestly I think its because I despise hospitals. But I think If I pass out I might need to see someone. I think the flu has taken a toll on me. Last night all I did was threw up the food my mom made for me last night and trust her food is wasted when you through it up lol I just I might need a flu shot if this continues. My nose is running my head is pounding. Last night I thought my head was going to explode it hurt so much. I stayed up till about 5 in the morning and woke up at like 6:30. How pathetic is that? But The sleep did wear off my headache and stomach ache though. Now All I do is cough and still have a little breathing problems. On top of this I have to finish writing up an interview I did on single mothers that work and go to school while raising a child. Its just ridiculous the cold just wont leave me alone. The summer gives me allergies and its just ugh leave me the fuck alone and let me breath a little please.
Ohh also I am having a slight trouble with me and my dad. Is it strange that when he says "I love you" that I cringe and try to say it without trying to seem like its to hard? I don't know its really hard for me to say it to him especially him but I remember my last boyfriend I had he would tell me it and all I can say is "You too." WTF is wrong with me? Why am I so commitment phoebe. Please tell me I'm not the only one. I'm not even comfortable saying it to my own mother who unlike my dad never abandon me. My mom's like my best friend but I have the hardest time just saying it. I mean I do love my mom but ugh the words are just to powerful for me. I always feel bad for a guy who thinks I'm a catch because first I'm a lazy lover lol second I'm a horrible girlfriend. Not that I would cheat on a guy because I just dont have the energy to do that but because its like the guy is the one calling making efforts to be with me while I just be so closed off. Ugh I need to see a fckin shrink again. This is not good especially since I'm like 24 yrs old. I have cousins and god sisters that has had children already. Its pathetic. IDK just wanted to get that out there.
That was so random
Ohh also I am having a slight trouble with me and my dad. Is it strange that when he says "I love you" that I cringe and try to say it without trying to seem like its to hard? I don't know its really hard for me to say it to him especially him but I remember my last boyfriend I had he would tell me it and all I can say is "You too." WTF is wrong with me? Why am I so commitment phoebe. Please tell me I'm not the only one. I'm not even comfortable saying it to my own mother who unlike my dad never abandon me. My mom's like my best friend but I have the hardest time just saying it. I mean I do love my mom but ugh the words are just to powerful for me. I always feel bad for a guy who thinks I'm a catch because first I'm a lazy lover lol second I'm a horrible girlfriend. Not that I would cheat on a guy because I just dont have the energy to do that but because its like the guy is the one calling making efforts to be with me while I just be so closed off. Ugh I need to see a fckin shrink again. This is not good especially since I'm like 24 yrs old. I have cousins and god sisters that has had children already. Its pathetic. IDK just wanted to get that out there.
That was so random