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Well I was right. Yesterday I was better and today Im hungover. Im glad Im back to beingmyself again. Not hungover, cause I dont really drink that much, but back to being Matt instead of morbidly depressed, crazy guy. Hopefully I wont be him again, but then my writing wouldnt be as interesting.
Yesterday I got real drunk and played poker with some of the people I work with. Too bad for me that a lot of them are in rehab, so most of them were sober all nigtand just made fun of me. I feel bad when I get drunk infront of those people, especially Travis who is a really good friend of mine, because I know how much they have been through to get over their alchoholism and I sometimes feel like I am rubbing it in their face. But I guess I shouldnt feel too bad for them because they always exact their revenge on me by laughing at me and taking my money in poker. So I guess everything it works out.
When I get real drunk I tend to tell the truth a lot. A girl last night called me a romantic when I said I was lonely. She said she could tell. She wasnt drunk and she read me things from her journal when i was tired of poker. She is ok, I just wish I didnt work with her because she annoys me, but last night she was ok. For some reason it offended me when she called me a romantic. Probably because I was drunk, or I guess I didnt want her to know that about me. It may be hard to boss her around now.
I had a lot of dreams last night, but none worth writing down. I feel bad because I havent spent time with my family lately. The guy who sold me my car is going to buy it back, which is good because I never drive it. I played video games at a friends house while we got drunk and it reminded me of being a kid again. Oh yeah, and I saw a pretty girl yesterday. She came to the game for a while with Travis's girlfriend. I met her once before, the last time I got drunk.. She is in rehab too, and she probabably thinks I spend my life this way.
Yesterday I got real drunk and played poker with some of the people I work with. Too bad for me that a lot of them are in rehab, so most of them were sober all nigtand just made fun of me. I feel bad when I get drunk infront of those people, especially Travis who is a really good friend of mine, because I know how much they have been through to get over their alchoholism and I sometimes feel like I am rubbing it in their face. But I guess I shouldnt feel too bad for them because they always exact their revenge on me by laughing at me and taking my money in poker. So I guess everything it works out.
When I get real drunk I tend to tell the truth a lot. A girl last night called me a romantic when I said I was lonely. She said she could tell. She wasnt drunk and she read me things from her journal when i was tired of poker. She is ok, I just wish I didnt work with her because she annoys me, but last night she was ok. For some reason it offended me when she called me a romantic. Probably because I was drunk, or I guess I didnt want her to know that about me. It may be hard to boss her around now.
I had a lot of dreams last night, but none worth writing down. I feel bad because I havent spent time with my family lately. The guy who sold me my car is going to buy it back, which is good because I never drive it. I played video games at a friends house while we got drunk and it reminded me of being a kid again. Oh yeah, and I saw a pretty girl yesterday. She came to the game for a while with Travis's girlfriend. I met her once before, the last time I got drunk.. She is in rehab too, and she probabably thinks I spend my life this way.