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The last couple of days have been hard on me, but I dont know why. Something hurts, but I dont know what it is. Ive been so overwhelmed lately, mostly with frustration because I dont know why I am the way I am. Sometimes I feel like a hundred different people at the same time, wanting 100 different things, going 100 different places. The only thing they have in common is they are just as confused as I am; just as lost.
Today I dont feel as sad, just sort of empty. I felt so bad yesterday that I just came home, cried, and went to bed. But I woke up and felt better; felt like I do now. Sometimes I feel like I am not strong enough. Sometimes I act tough just because I know I am not. I wish I knew who I was. If you know who you are I say your are lucky. No matter how good or bad your life gets you'll always have that. No matter how good or bad life gets for me, Ill always be lost.
Sometimes when I feel like this I just sleep for days and it goes away, so maybe thats what I will do. I havent felt this way for a long time, and I cant say that i've missed it. I wish it would would never come back. I wish I knew what brought it back so I could never do it again.
My last final was today. Im glad that they are over, but dissapointed because I didnt study. I am happy that I can just work more now; work it off. I leave for Pennsylvania in a month and Hawaii and three but I dont feel excited. The only thing that excites me is having a few things less to worry about. I wish I werent so neurotic...
I wonder if people ever feel randomly sad like me? I wonder what they do? Maybe we should start a club and we would only meet when some one felt down. I wonder if that would help me? It seems like the sadder I get the less I want to see people.
I went to the baseball game the other day and was feeling so down I got drunk and slept at a friends. The Rockies won though. What should I do?
Today I dont feel as sad, just sort of empty. I felt so bad yesterday that I just came home, cried, and went to bed. But I woke up and felt better; felt like I do now. Sometimes I feel like I am not strong enough. Sometimes I act tough just because I know I am not. I wish I knew who I was. If you know who you are I say your are lucky. No matter how good or bad your life gets you'll always have that. No matter how good or bad life gets for me, Ill always be lost.
Sometimes when I feel like this I just sleep for days and it goes away, so maybe thats what I will do. I havent felt this way for a long time, and I cant say that i've missed it. I wish it would would never come back. I wish I knew what brought it back so I could never do it again.
My last final was today. Im glad that they are over, but dissapointed because I didnt study. I am happy that I can just work more now; work it off. I leave for Pennsylvania in a month and Hawaii and three but I dont feel excited. The only thing that excites me is having a few things less to worry about. I wish I werent so neurotic...
I wonder if people ever feel randomly sad like me? I wonder what they do? Maybe we should start a club and we would only meet when some one felt down. I wonder if that would help me? It seems like the sadder I get the less I want to see people.
I went to the baseball game the other day and was feeling so down I got drunk and slept at a friends. The Rockies won though. What should I do?