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this post is going to seem like im sad or depressed. im not at all, just thinking deeply i guess. i havent used livejournal in forever which in a way is kind of comforting because no one is really reading this. since myspace is the new livejournal. haha. anyway, i was thinking that im incredibly satisfied. me relationship with God is closer then ever. im proud of myself. proud of my grades, proud of my church, proud of my ability to stay away from stupid highschool choices. i have been single since last febuary. not to say there hasnt been some boys since then but no relationships since the last complete trainwreck. surfing has been everything to me. it is my baby, it is my compeitive outlet, it is my stress releiver, i am untouchable. i am on a team, a good team of surfers, and i am loving contests and i am hungry for the next one. im going to california for two months during secong semester for two whole months. because my aunt wants to take me. i am planning on polishing my surfing. i know God is going something with my surfing and i know thats what ill be doing for the rest of my life. i am very well taken care of. but i just need someone to make me laugh. i think that is what i am missing. a real, genuine, let your hair down, laugh till you have tears in your eyes, kind of friend. i need somebody real, somebody to share my ups and downs with, somebody fun, somebody like jacob or travis or ariel or meghan back in cocoa beach. i am completely satisfied with the person i have become and i have learned so much. now im ready to find a friend to stick with. i dont know where that person is, i dont know if its one of the friends i already have. but i know one must be coming, i havent really laughed with a good friend here in so long. anyway, next contest is in january. i go to cocoa beach to watch the girls in the gallaz pro at the begining of january. and im setting goals for my surfing. and im seeing myself progress tremendously. i love where i am, and most importantly, i love who i have become.