May want to skip this..

[mizzoubell]

So everything has been weird lately. Not weird so much as...ok maybe that was the right word for it. Like my relationship with my mom. Ok i know that it has never been what people would say an actual mother/daughter relationship, but now its been worse. I haven't seen her in about a month, and instead of asking whats wrong period, she jumps on whats wrong with me. Then when we actually "talk" i get the guilt trip, and that i don't know anything. Then that great question of "what do you need teri?". I need a mother! I don't have anything like that in my life, not an aunt, older sister (ok any sister thats blood related), step-mom, mother-in-law, nothing. I do have a parent, but my Dad can't exactly fill the void. I don't need her to be a friend. I have those that care about me. I have Tony that care's for me. I need her.

Sorry for that. Thats been really on my mind for the last three weeks. Well, I guess i've been feeling that for about five years...more than that.

Teri