1 week until DE with Leon, 3 weeks until I'm back at Cabrini
I'm excited about the things in the subject line, but unforunately, they have to be overshadowed by something else. I'm just sick and tired of putting myself out there in the form of Facebook posts and messages and numerous IMs, and just being ignored in return. It was pointed out to me that although it sucks to have to accept the fact that I'm tossing an 18 year friendship out the window, it's also no great loss, especially if he would readily drop our friendship so quickly over something seemingly insignificant. And unfortunately, I have to agree.
I feel like I could cry, but I can't really bring myself to, which is a perfect example of how I feel at this moment: conflicted. Yes, he's been this way all this life, yes, he's stubborn and arrogant, but he's been my friend. He's been there in times when no one else has been. He was the one constant in my life for the longest time. I doubt I would have been able to get through elementary school without him. Yes, he's excentric, yes, he's strange, yes, he's opinionated, but he was my friend, and I can't just forget everything he was in my life.
Everyone usually comes to me and tells me stories about how they've lost touch with friends, or reasons why they're not friends with certain people anymore, and I used to think, 'Thank God that's never happened to me.' It sucks, but as much as it sucks, I have a lot more respect for myself than to sit around and wait for him to realize what an awesome friendship he's losing. I have better friends than that, and thank God they would never do this to me.
Although part of me has to wonder if it is me.
I feel like I could cry, but I can't really bring myself to, which is a perfect example of how I feel at this moment: conflicted. Yes, he's been this way all this life, yes, he's stubborn and arrogant, but he's been my friend. He's been there in times when no one else has been. He was the one constant in my life for the longest time. I doubt I would have been able to get through elementary school without him. Yes, he's excentric, yes, he's strange, yes, he's opinionated, but he was my friend, and I can't just forget everything he was in my life.
Everyone usually comes to me and tells me stories about how they've lost touch with friends, or reasons why they're not friends with certain people anymore, and I used to think, 'Thank God that's never happened to me.' It sucks, but as much as it sucks, I have a lot more respect for myself than to sit around and wait for him to realize what an awesome friendship he's losing. I have better friends than that, and thank God they would never do this to me.
Although part of me has to wonder if it is me.