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ughh so the past couple of days have been the worst I think of my life. Me and Alex have done NOTHING but fight. We've broken up about 3 times but somehow can't get out the door. Except for last nite. I packed a bag, got my school stuff, said bye to kitty and left. I have never seen Alex cry so hard in my entire life, which broke my heart and an hour later, I was back at the apt.
I dunno what to do. I know breaking up is the hardest thing to do, and I dont want to break up. But I can't keep going on like this. These fights have been the most we've ever done. I love him with all my heart, but it's over STUPID STUPID stuff. I can't keep crying every day. I can't go to work crying every day. It's so obvious when Im sad and every body sees it at work. I am usually ur girl, who is a people person, smiling, laughing and goofing off every second. yah not lately and everybody has been noticing it. I'm tired of answering the "nothing" answer to "what's wrong, ur not urself today"
I tell myself that I will just let him vent, let him yell, to get it out of his system, and I wont say a word, but he says one thing, I yell back and it's 10 times worse.
So yah I'm dealing with this now and I hope it ends soon. I gotta get to work but I'm gettin my nails done first so I have something to be happy about. I haven't started my diet yet cuz I've been so stressed that I haven't had time to go get everything that I need for the diet. U know I think it's something about Valentine's Day that does this. Last year the week before Valentine's we did nothing but fight, then once that was over, we were fine. Well I hope that is the truth for this year, cuz I"m ready for it to be over...
I dunno what to do. I know breaking up is the hardest thing to do, and I dont want to break up. But I can't keep going on like this. These fights have been the most we've ever done. I love him with all my heart, but it's over STUPID STUPID stuff. I can't keep crying every day. I can't go to work crying every day. It's so obvious when Im sad and every body sees it at work. I am usually ur girl, who is a people person, smiling, laughing and goofing off every second. yah not lately and everybody has been noticing it. I'm tired of answering the "nothing" answer to "what's wrong, ur not urself today"
I tell myself that I will just let him vent, let him yell, to get it out of his system, and I wont say a word, but he says one thing, I yell back and it's 10 times worse.
So yah I'm dealing with this now and I hope it ends soon. I gotta get to work but I'm gettin my nails done first so I have something to be happy about. I haven't started my diet yet cuz I've been so stressed that I haven't had time to go get everything that I need for the diet. U know I think it's something about Valentine's Day that does this. Last year the week before Valentine's we did nothing but fight, then once that was over, we were fine. Well I hope that is the truth for this year, cuz I"m ready for it to be over...