Lacking in posts
Sorry I don't post much here anymore... I have very little to talk about...
Last night I cried myself silly even though I heard some of the best news I've heard in weeks. My best friend finally found a job! And she gets to work with YARN ALL DAY! Seriously, I am SO FRICKING HAPPY for her! But I am just so messed up right now emotionally...
I nearly started crying over Starbucks with some friends last night. We were talking/laughing about airplane flights and my girl friend asked me when I leave and I started talking about it and suddenly I found myself just completely choking up... I thought "Oh god, am I just going to start crying at Starbucks?! People here are going to think I am off my nut!" And I thought about how awkward that would be for my three friends that were there and how I could conceivably ruin the entire evening we'd just had with my stupid emotional breakdown and somehow managed to get it under control... but once home again, thinking it over again, I couldn't stop it.
I am just going to be such a mess for a while... Then I'll be okay. I know that- I really do... I'll be fine, I'm just not right now.
Last night I cried myself silly even though I heard some of the best news I've heard in weeks. My best friend finally found a job! And she gets to work with YARN ALL DAY! Seriously, I am SO FRICKING HAPPY for her! But I am just so messed up right now emotionally...
I nearly started crying over Starbucks with some friends last night. We were talking/laughing about airplane flights and my girl friend asked me when I leave and I started talking about it and suddenly I found myself just completely choking up... I thought "Oh god, am I just going to start crying at Starbucks?! People here are going to think I am off my nut!" And I thought about how awkward that would be for my three friends that were there and how I could conceivably ruin the entire evening we'd just had with my stupid emotional breakdown and somehow managed to get it under control... but once home again, thinking it over again, I couldn't stop it.
I am just going to be such a mess for a while... Then I'll be okay. I know that- I really do... I'll be fine, I'm just not right now.