[fic] Officially Missing You... --Jin's Part--
Officially Missing You...
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Akame
Rating : PG15
Disclaimer : I owned nothing… not even the song XD
Summary : a sequel-kinda-fic for “SECRET LOVE”. Yeah, somehow this one turned into an extra story before the real sequel.
A/N : Inspired from Tamia’s “Officially Missing You“. I inserted the song lyrics in the story =D I divided the story to two parts, the Kazuya’s and Jin’s part. I posted Kazuya’s part before, so here is Jin’s part. Douzo !
Extra Note : Just for information, Adrianne Hawkings is 100% fictional. This fic isn’t a mary-sue fic… and I’m not her. I just need a character to accompany Jin in LA =D But yes, her eyes are green…blame on Lovejuice! XDXD
Tons of huggies and kisses for my luvly beta carey_chan. Thx u so much dear~ ^_________^
-Kazuya’s Part-
-Jin’s Part-
It was another sunny day in LA when Akanishi Jin woke up in the morning. The sun shone brightly while birds chirped noisy and people greeted each other in the hallway. Jin groaned in his bed, covered himself using his blanket to avoid the bright light that filled his room through the opened window.
Another morning… another beginning…
Another day of missing him…
Slowly, he rubbed his eyes and yawned; threw his blanket to the side and walked to the bathroom. The cold water poured over his body as he turned the shower on. The dripping water sounding like rain. Pressing his palm to the white linoleum wall, he closed his eyes and let the water run over his body.
Kazuya… Kazuya…
The name echoed in his mind like an endless mantra; or a sweet devilish curse that tainted his brain with invisible stings. To be honest, he quite enjoyed his life here in LA. He could do his normal activities as an ordinary person, not an public figure like he always had been in Japan.
His friends treated him as “Akanishi Jin” not “a famous idol of JE”. He got the privacy that he once had lost years ago in Japan. Here he is a nobody; he could enjoyed his days to study the language and live the lifestyle he used to dream of before…
But still-The most precious thing for him isn’t here.
Kazuya…
The one he loved with all of his heart is living his life in Japan, so far away from LA and that fact was frustrating like hell.
“ Kazuya… “
Jin whispered the name… the name that he believed had been carved inside him; every line casts a sorrowful feelings of missing him.
He turned the shower off and got dressed. The sun ray was bright; the weather was so sunny and warm outside as he moved his legs along the pavement path. On his way to class, he met some familiar people and greeted them, “ Mornin’ “
“ Jin ! “
Jin turned back and smiled to the cheerful voice, “ Morning, Adrianne “
Adrianne Hawkings is one of his classmate here in LA; an auburn haired girl with green eyes that sparkled like a raw jade. The said girl greeted him on his first day and they ‘ve become friends ever since. That girl knew about his relationship with Kazuya; but that kind of thing is a common thing in LA. The country even legitimats the same gender’s marriage, so it was just fine when Adrianne knew about the fact.
“ You got the panda’s eyes again “ She teased, “ Couldn`t sleep again last night ? “
Jin blushed and forced a smile, “ Yeah “
“ …woke up all night missing him again ? “
“ Yeah “
Adrianne shook her head and stared at him, “ You are killing yourself like this you know… Too much alcohol and less sleep every night, forcing yourself near the limit… Why don’t you just confess to him ? “
“ I can’t… “
“ Why not ? “
“ The situation in Japan is way too different. Most of the people are homophobic… and both of us are public figure. For the agency, image is everything… so it would be fatal for us “
“ But he knew that you love him ? “
“ Back then… yes “ Jin replied, “ But now… honestly, I don’t know “
“ You are useless “
“ I know “ Jin answered the sarcasm, “ Thank you “
They got different classes that morning, so Jin waved at her, “ See you later, Adrianne “
Adrianne waved back, but suddenly she called Jin’s name again, “ Jin ! “
“ Yes, Adrianne ? “
“ I have a show tonight at Sheena’s “ Adrianne smiled mentioning the name of a small private club which is so famous among them. “ I’ll sing at 7 P.M. Come and watch me “
“ Okay… I will “
Jin lifted his face up, felt the warmth of the breeze; letting himself drowned in his own thought.
Fate is cruel, right ?
Named itself as destiny, it keeps playing with people’s heart; toying with their emotions and enjoying their tears…
It was not the first time these thoughts flashed in his mind : What if he never had fallen for Kazuya ? What if they had never been in love ? Why did he fell for the younger boy ? Would things have been different if their love hadn't existed ?
Those questions echoed in his head, over and over. Jin bit his lips, knowing that this day would turn into another long day.
Kazuya…
Kazuya…
I miss you… so much…
He managed to survive the day and found himself seated in Sheena’s right on time. 7 P.M, in the reserved table under his name. Adrianne smiled as she held her acoustic guitar and sat in the wooden chair, greeting the audience with the standing mic in front of her.
“ Good evening, everyone “ She solemnly said, “ I got the honor to be the first singer today. I think we need a familiar song to start with… Too bad that it was sunny today, but I hope you guys still will enjoy this song… “
Jin smiled at her and Adrianne continued, “ I dedicated this song for my friend; Officially Missing You by Tamia “
Jin’s smile faded, confused with the song that Adrianne pick. A new way of her satire attempts…?
Adrianne played the beginning notes and sang with her husky voice.
…all I hear is raindrops
falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go
‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away
And today… I’m officially missin’ you
I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I’ve fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today I’m officially missing you
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I… I’m officially...
All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all…
I don’t know you at all…
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say
that I… I’m officially missin’ you
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I… I’m officially…
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you…
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I… 1`I’m officially...
It’s official
Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I… I’m officially missin’ you…
The audience applauded after Adrianne had ended the song. Meanwhile, tears rolled down Jin’s cheeks; being surprised himself to find that he was unconsciously crying. Overwhelming emotions bursting and leaping from his heart; hurt and longing.
Kazuya… God… I love you so much…
I `ve loved you so much to the point that the feeling itself has become unbearable.
I love you…
And I really want to act selfish; to declare my love for you…
“ I believe all of us have times when they're missing someone dear “ Adrianne said in a soft tone, “ I just want to say… Go to get that someone. We lose the people we love mostly because we never told them that we love them. We forget to say those three words; or never had enough courage to say them. But those three words are so simple yet powerful words… so say those words before the chance slips from your hand “
From the stage, Adrianne whispered in an inaudible words, “ Go get your love “;
Jin nodded slowly.
Later in the night…
***Jin’s cellphone : Message’s menu***
TO : Kamenashi Kazuya
Kazuya, I know it's sudden telling you this but I must say it to you.
I LOVE YOU…
The cursor froze for some seconds. His thumbs moved and erased all of the letters; leave a blank screen. Jin sighed, typed and erased his message over and over. Hours later, finally he stared at his screen with obscure eyes.
TO : Kamenashi Kazuya
I miss you… can you give me a second chance ?
Another frozen cursor and he erased the letters again; leaving the first three words : I miss you…
SEND MESSAGE?
YES.
--owari-
Not quite a satisfied ending ? Well, at least Jin sent the messages to Kazu-chan… In Secret Love, all of the messages of Jin’s and Kazuya’s cellphone got the same treatment :
SEND MESSAGE ?
NO.
SAVE FILE TO DRAFT ?
YES.
I was working on the real sequel right now… And the third chapter of Almond Blossom. And the second chapter of Eternal Summer…And another one short drabble… Damn, I neglected so much work =p *bricked*
Just hope that my assignments won’t pile up, and I’ll try to update all of them ASAP~
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Akame
Rating : PG15
Disclaimer : I owned nothing… not even the song XD
Summary : a sequel-kinda-fic for “SECRET LOVE”. Yeah, somehow this one turned into an extra story before the real sequel.
A/N : Inspired from Tamia’s “Officially Missing You“. I inserted the song lyrics in the story =D I divided the story to two parts, the Kazuya’s and Jin’s part. I posted Kazuya’s part before, so here is Jin’s part. Douzo !
Extra Note : Just for information, Adrianne Hawkings is 100% fictional. This fic isn’t a mary-sue fic… and I’m not her. I just need a character to accompany Jin in LA =D But yes, her eyes are green…blame on Lovejuice! XDXD
Tons of huggies and kisses for my luvly beta carey_chan. Thx u so much dear~ ^_________^
-Kazuya’s Part-
-Jin’s Part-
It was another sunny day in LA when Akanishi Jin woke up in the morning. The sun shone brightly while birds chirped noisy and people greeted each other in the hallway. Jin groaned in his bed, covered himself using his blanket to avoid the bright light that filled his room through the opened window.
Another morning… another beginning…
Another day of missing him…
Slowly, he rubbed his eyes and yawned; threw his blanket to the side and walked to the bathroom. The cold water poured over his body as he turned the shower on. The dripping water sounding like rain. Pressing his palm to the white linoleum wall, he closed his eyes and let the water run over his body.
Kazuya… Kazuya…
The name echoed in his mind like an endless mantra; or a sweet devilish curse that tainted his brain with invisible stings. To be honest, he quite enjoyed his life here in LA. He could do his normal activities as an ordinary person, not an public figure like he always had been in Japan.
His friends treated him as “Akanishi Jin” not “a famous idol of JE”. He got the privacy that he once had lost years ago in Japan. Here he is a nobody; he could enjoyed his days to study the language and live the lifestyle he used to dream of before…
But still-The most precious thing for him isn’t here.
Kazuya…
The one he loved with all of his heart is living his life in Japan, so far away from LA and that fact was frustrating like hell.
“ Kazuya… “
Jin whispered the name… the name that he believed had been carved inside him; every line casts a sorrowful feelings of missing him.
He turned the shower off and got dressed. The sun ray was bright; the weather was so sunny and warm outside as he moved his legs along the pavement path. On his way to class, he met some familiar people and greeted them, “ Mornin’ “
“ Jin ! “
Jin turned back and smiled to the cheerful voice, “ Morning, Adrianne “
Adrianne Hawkings is one of his classmate here in LA; an auburn haired girl with green eyes that sparkled like a raw jade. The said girl greeted him on his first day and they ‘ve become friends ever since. That girl knew about his relationship with Kazuya; but that kind of thing is a common thing in LA. The country even legitimats the same gender’s marriage, so it was just fine when Adrianne knew about the fact.
“ You got the panda’s eyes again “ She teased, “ Couldn`t sleep again last night ? “
Jin blushed and forced a smile, “ Yeah “
“ …woke up all night missing him again ? “
“ Yeah “
Adrianne shook her head and stared at him, “ You are killing yourself like this you know… Too much alcohol and less sleep every night, forcing yourself near the limit… Why don’t you just confess to him ? “
“ I can’t… “
“ Why not ? “
“ The situation in Japan is way too different. Most of the people are homophobic… and both of us are public figure. For the agency, image is everything… so it would be fatal for us “
“ But he knew that you love him ? “
“ Back then… yes “ Jin replied, “ But now… honestly, I don’t know “
“ You are useless “
“ I know “ Jin answered the sarcasm, “ Thank you “
They got different classes that morning, so Jin waved at her, “ See you later, Adrianne “
Adrianne waved back, but suddenly she called Jin’s name again, “ Jin ! “
“ Yes, Adrianne ? “
“ I have a show tonight at Sheena’s “ Adrianne smiled mentioning the name of a small private club which is so famous among them. “ I’ll sing at 7 P.M. Come and watch me “
“ Okay… I will “
Jin lifted his face up, felt the warmth of the breeze; letting himself drowned in his own thought.
Fate is cruel, right ?
Named itself as destiny, it keeps playing with people’s heart; toying with their emotions and enjoying their tears…
It was not the first time these thoughts flashed in his mind : What if he never had fallen for Kazuya ? What if they had never been in love ? Why did he fell for the younger boy ? Would things have been different if their love hadn't existed ?
Those questions echoed in his head, over and over. Jin bit his lips, knowing that this day would turn into another long day.
Kazuya…
Kazuya…
I miss you… so much…
He managed to survive the day and found himself seated in Sheena’s right on time. 7 P.M, in the reserved table under his name. Adrianne smiled as she held her acoustic guitar and sat in the wooden chair, greeting the audience with the standing mic in front of her.
“ Good evening, everyone “ She solemnly said, “ I got the honor to be the first singer today. I think we need a familiar song to start with… Too bad that it was sunny today, but I hope you guys still will enjoy this song… “
Jin smiled at her and Adrianne continued, “ I dedicated this song for my friend; Officially Missing You by Tamia “
Jin’s smile faded, confused with the song that Adrianne pick. A new way of her satire attempts…?
Adrianne played the beginning notes and sang with her husky voice.
…all I hear is raindrops
falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go
‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away
And today… I’m officially missin’ you
I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I’ve fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today I’m officially missing you
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I… I’m officially...
All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all…
I don’t know you at all…
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say
that I… I’m officially missin’ you
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I… I’m officially…
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you…
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I… 1`I’m officially...
It’s official
Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I… I’m officially missin’ you…
The audience applauded after Adrianne had ended the song. Meanwhile, tears rolled down Jin’s cheeks; being surprised himself to find that he was unconsciously crying. Overwhelming emotions bursting and leaping from his heart; hurt and longing.
Kazuya… God… I love you so much…
I `ve loved you so much to the point that the feeling itself has become unbearable.
I love you…
And I really want to act selfish; to declare my love for you…
“ I believe all of us have times when they're missing someone dear “ Adrianne said in a soft tone, “ I just want to say… Go to get that someone. We lose the people we love mostly because we never told them that we love them. We forget to say those three words; or never had enough courage to say them. But those three words are so simple yet powerful words… so say those words before the chance slips from your hand “
From the stage, Adrianne whispered in an inaudible words, “ Go get your love “;
Jin nodded slowly.
Later in the night…
***Jin’s cellphone : Message’s menu***
TO : Kamenashi Kazuya
Kazuya, I know it's sudden telling you this but I must say it to you.
I LOVE YOU…
The cursor froze for some seconds. His thumbs moved and erased all of the letters; leave a blank screen. Jin sighed, typed and erased his message over and over. Hours later, finally he stared at his screen with obscure eyes.
TO : Kamenashi Kazuya
I miss you… can you give me a second chance ?
Another frozen cursor and he erased the letters again; leaving the first three words : I miss you…
SEND MESSAGE?
YES.
--owari-
Not quite a satisfied ending ? Well, at least Jin sent the messages to Kazu-chan… In Secret Love, all of the messages of Jin’s and Kazuya’s cellphone got the same treatment :
SEND MESSAGE ?
NO.
SAVE FILE TO DRAFT ?
YES.
I was working on the real sequel right now… And the third chapter of Almond Blossom. And the second chapter of Eternal Summer…And another one short drabble… Damn, I neglected so much work =p *bricked*
Just hope that my assignments won’t pile up, and I’ll try to update all of them ASAP~