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-sighs- People.. Ugh, so stressfull.
I don't understand how words can change, promises can change, such life goals, can end so quickly, utterly forgotten, unless thought of on bad terms, and everything shifted opposite. Not love, hate.
I hate the way things are, I hate how things were, I hate the fact that it was all a lie. Living with hope for something for so long and then it's just shot down, it falls.. You find it dead.. Even worse, you see that person shoot it down.
Then, tell me, what's the point from there on? My life has been hell, nothing but hurt and used by males since, not to say I wasn't then either. So I've no good expreience truly, nothing's ended happily. It's all so complicated. People appear to be what they're not, make themselves out to be stronger, better, more trustworthy, truthfull, reliable.. More mature. When in reality, it's all that matters, your age still defines everything. Life, love, it's all crap, or it has been for me. -sighs-
Sighing more than once in a post is never good.. What do I want? The truth, love, happiness, reliability, mainly.. Love. Which can't exsist.
God damn it. -.- I know this entry is pointless, few will read it, muchless comment. So I guess I'm finished.. Now, to make it through another day of school.
I don't understand how words can change, promises can change, such life goals, can end so quickly, utterly forgotten, unless thought of on bad terms, and everything shifted opposite. Not love, hate.
I hate the way things are, I hate how things were, I hate the fact that it was all a lie. Living with hope for something for so long and then it's just shot down, it falls.. You find it dead.. Even worse, you see that person shoot it down.
Then, tell me, what's the point from there on? My life has been hell, nothing but hurt and used by males since, not to say I wasn't then either. So I've no good expreience truly, nothing's ended happily. It's all so complicated. People appear to be what they're not, make themselves out to be stronger, better, more trustworthy, truthfull, reliable.. More mature. When in reality, it's all that matters, your age still defines everything. Life, love, it's all crap, or it has been for me. -sighs-
Sighing more than once in a post is never good.. What do I want? The truth, love, happiness, reliability, mainly.. Love. Which can't exsist.
God damn it. -.- I know this entry is pointless, few will read it, muchless comment. So I guess I'm finished.. Now, to make it through another day of school.