advice anyone?
i forgot livejournal existed.
im all bent out of shape over a dream that i had last night where one of my friends told me she loved me. this little problem, i had thought, was solved two years ago when, after telling her i thought i loved her and her saying it back, my friend jasmine told me she was after my boyfriend and not me. what a way to kill a love.
unfortunatly, the dream came true about 3 hours latter, when she did tell me she loved me.
both me and V are in relationships with men. oh woe is me. and my 'man' is incredibly jelouse of anything having to do with V. (of course he greatly offened me the other day by telling my friend jasmine she could fuck me if she wanted. as if that wasn't up to me in the first place. and as if i would want that after throwing myself into hell for pete. meh. life.)
so here is my very real and very annoying dilema:
i still like V. i still love pete who would die on the inside if i did anything with V.
I AM STILL BI AND NEED A WOMAN! but also, i don't want to do anything with jasmine who really doesn't interest me.
this is probably the most problematic thing to ever happen to me because of my sexuality.
why cant the world work out the way i want it?
im all bent out of shape over a dream that i had last night where one of my friends told me she loved me. this little problem, i had thought, was solved two years ago when, after telling her i thought i loved her and her saying it back, my friend jasmine told me she was after my boyfriend and not me. what a way to kill a love.
unfortunatly, the dream came true about 3 hours latter, when she did tell me she loved me.
both me and V are in relationships with men. oh woe is me. and my 'man' is incredibly jelouse of anything having to do with V. (of course he greatly offened me the other day by telling my friend jasmine she could fuck me if she wanted. as if that wasn't up to me in the first place. and as if i would want that after throwing myself into hell for pete. meh. life.)
so here is my very real and very annoying dilema:
i still like V. i still love pete who would die on the inside if i did anything with V.
I AM STILL BI AND NEED A WOMAN! but also, i don't want to do anything with jasmine who really doesn't interest me.
this is probably the most problematic thing to ever happen to me because of my sexuality.
why cant the world work out the way i want it?