Car Sort-of-Crash
So driving home from work today, after working out, stopping for Chinese food, etc, I was going around a curve and had zoned out for a minute and realized I was over the line. Like an idiot I overcorrected and the car started going sideways, and instead of pumping the brakes (my car has no ABS) I floored the brake and tried downshifting, and ended up rolling into one of the deep runoff ditches near the base. I was fine, the airbag didn't even deploy, and the car didn't strike anything, but I felt like such an idiot. Some Italians and a couple of people from base stopped by the side to help me out, and these two awesome Italian dudes hooked my car up to their truck and eventually got my car back on the road just fine with little worse than a busted oil cap. If two of the dudes who pulled over to help hadn't been people I knew, I would really just write it off, but now my having a minor, no-injuries, no damage accident is going to rage through every corner of the Officerniverse like a wildfire of haha laugh at the fool. Lately that's just about all I feel like happens when I get near the base, let alone go to work.
Like I said in previous entries, I've actually been feeling pretty upbeat, lately. One blow, losing my wallet in Croatia, and I just kinda shook it off - accidents happen, I wasn't being particularly absent-minded or anything, it just straight-up vanished. But now after this accident I feel like a complete dumbass and somehow it was all my fault the wallet went missing and I blanked out and didn't keep my eyes on the road. It would almost feel better if I had been fiddling with my iPod, or on the phone, or texting, but literally I just didn't notice what was going on around me and overreacted and ended up in a ditch. I don't even know what to do next - I'm riding out the "crash" of adrenaline pretty well and making sure that my body doesn't decide to go into shock or something retarded, which at this point I wouldn't put past it. I am thinking about asking for tomorrow off, but I have meetings I have to go to, and things I'm supposed to be doing to keep exercise preparations on track for completion on time. I can't believe that it's nearly nine PM. I was hoping to get some cleaning done in my house before bed, but now it's almost TIME for bed, and I've gotten nothing done but humiliate myself yet again. At least I've got my health, although in saying that, I feel like I'm just inviting disaster, lol. Anyway, I'm starting to get out of the rut, so it was at least good to write this out here.
Like I said in previous entries, I've actually been feeling pretty upbeat, lately. One blow, losing my wallet in Croatia, and I just kinda shook it off - accidents happen, I wasn't being particularly absent-minded or anything, it just straight-up vanished. But now after this accident I feel like a complete dumbass and somehow it was all my fault the wallet went missing and I blanked out and didn't keep my eyes on the road. It would almost feel better if I had been fiddling with my iPod, or on the phone, or texting, but literally I just didn't notice what was going on around me and overreacted and ended up in a ditch. I don't even know what to do next - I'm riding out the "crash" of adrenaline pretty well and making sure that my body doesn't decide to go into shock or something retarded, which at this point I wouldn't put past it. I am thinking about asking for tomorrow off, but I have meetings I have to go to, and things I'm supposed to be doing to keep exercise preparations on track for completion on time. I can't believe that it's nearly nine PM. I was hoping to get some cleaning done in my house before bed, but now it's almost TIME for bed, and I've gotten nothing done but humiliate myself yet again. At least I've got my health, although in saying that, I feel like I'm just inviting disaster, lol. Anyway, I'm starting to get out of the rut, so it was at least good to write this out here.