I have the broadest shoulders
Two days ago I was thinking too much at work (as always), and I was mentally on my knees.
Paul, please say yes. Save me. You're the only one who can. You have no idea how much your yes would affect me, my decisions and my life.
And in a way, my prayer was heard and fulfilled.
I stopped at the damn bar, proceeded to stomp in (thank you God for such massive and mighty legs) and said hi. AND CRIED OMG. He was sitting in the other room, peeling potatoes. ultimatesweetpeasrsly. I waved to him with a huge smile and I swear I saw his eyes sparkle for a millisecond! He looked a bit lost, but maybe it was just my beauty flustering him HAHA~ Anyway, after a coffee he asked us if we were going to stay at my grannies' for some time, but the answer was no because of work and multiple other shitty circumstances. Then he told me "Oh anyway I'm going there to cut the grass some day next week... I'll stop by and see if you're there... And by the way, is it extra long right now? I've been meaning to go for a month, but never managed to!" WOOHOO he's going to stop by and see if I'm there?? Well honey, even if I'm not there, you can count on my number lmao. In fact I answered "Well I might not be there, but come in nonetheless, my granny will be glad to offer you a coffee!" AND a number hell yes!
You really, really saved me.
I put the "high hopes" tag, but it's not that I expect too much. He might not like me, once again, but honestly who cares? Jason said it too well. "Let's say you send some love to someone, but they don't reciprocate the way you expected. That's nothing to worry about. It doesn't mean they don't love you. Besides, if they don't, why worry about that? If that mattered, you'd be creating that as a condition for having love in your life. Unconditional love is what we practiced when we came into this world in the first place, so it's best we get back to being that." And besides, I don't love him yet. I just want to know him better as a friend. Then, we'll see how things develop.
In the meanwhile, you get a tag of your own. Because you saved me.
Paul, please say yes. Save me. You're the only one who can. You have no idea how much your yes would affect me, my decisions and my life.
And in a way, my prayer was heard and fulfilled.
I stopped at the damn bar, proceeded to stomp in (thank you God for such massive and mighty legs) and said hi. AND CRIED OMG. He was sitting in the other room, peeling potatoes. ultimatesweetpeasrsly. I waved to him with a huge smile and I swear I saw his eyes sparkle for a millisecond! He looked a bit lost, but maybe it was just my beauty flustering him HAHA~ Anyway, after a coffee he asked us if we were going to stay at my grannies' for some time, but the answer was no because of work and multiple other shitty circumstances. Then he told me "Oh anyway I'm going there to cut the grass some day next week... I'll stop by and see if you're there... And by the way, is it extra long right now? I've been meaning to go for a month, but never managed to!" WOOHOO he's going to stop by and see if I'm there?? Well honey, even if I'm not there, you can count on my number lmao. In fact I answered "Well I might not be there, but come in nonetheless, my granny will be glad to offer you a coffee!" AND a number hell yes!
You really, really saved me.
I put the "high hopes" tag, but it's not that I expect too much. He might not like me, once again, but honestly who cares? Jason said it too well. "Let's say you send some love to someone, but they don't reciprocate the way you expected. That's nothing to worry about. It doesn't mean they don't love you. Besides, if they don't, why worry about that? If that mattered, you'd be creating that as a condition for having love in your life. Unconditional love is what we practiced when we came into this world in the first place, so it's best we get back to being that." And besides, I don't love him yet. I just want to know him better as a friend. Then, we'll see how things develop.
In the meanwhile, you get a tag of your own. Because you saved me.