can't even think of a proper title. could "forever is overrated" do?
Just when I started feeling a tiny bit better (thanks to a massive amount of funny videos starring NEWS), jungsoo posted his pic. But it's not your fault, dear. Don't worry, I don't hate you. You didn't know it and you didn't do it on purpose, so it's ok.
Even though I was trying to avoid posting immediately after what happened, thinking that maybe tomorrow or some other day I would have been more coherent, upon seeing his face I realized I couldn't keep quiet.
Funny how my brain still doesn't get it. Heart aches, tears keep on flowing, but that pink and soft thing refuses to work.
I've been liking Heath, both as an actor and as a man, ever since 10 things I hate about you, which was his first big hit in Hollywood. I've seen most of his movies, missing just two or three.
I know that the amount of movies you've watched doesn't make you a better fan, but I'm surely ranking higher than anyone else who happened to see just one by chance, aren't I?
I was AM a fan. I've always supported him, in the ways you can support an actor. I've seen him grow, and I'll always remember what I told my family: "This boy is going to be famous. Trust me. He's great.".
I loved his way of acting. I loved his deep voice. Most people complained about how he always sounded sleepy and mumbling, but seriously - you can't judge an actor basing yourself on his voice alone.
I have many favourite actors (Dustin Hoffman and Geoffrey Rush just to name two), but I guess my all time fave was definitely Heath. And I think I grew attached to him like this because I've been keeping not just one eye, but both, on him for almost 10 years now. My love for him was so mature and adult-like that I managed to be happy both when he married and when they had the baby. Whereas an average fangirl would have like broken down in tears and cursed the "damn woman".
If I think about what I was doing just before my dad stepped into the room and told me about what happened to "this young actor who was in that cowboys movie", I get shivers. I was downloading some old Gazette songs because my sister asked for them, and as soon as I listened to a couple of them, it was like a dive into the past. So many memories. Then I remembered about Juunana Sai. The masterpiece. One of the few songs that can really make your heart sink, and when I say really I say it for real. Just the lyrics alone are a blast, if you're brave enough to add the music (and that goddamn guitar at the end which is just too much to handle), well good job. Anyway, I got that one. I pressed play. At the beginning it was just a subtle feeling, but then melancholy wanted to be on top. So I felt like that, without an apparent reason. Dad came in without even knocking and babbled something about this young actor and stuff, and it actually took me some time before I could realize who was that all about.
I quickly googled his name, and there was the article. I raised both hands, uncounsciously, and covered my mouth. I stopped breathing. I couldn't utter a word, but somehow I managed to tell dad that "yes, it's Heath Ledger". He went back to the kitchen, and what did I do? Of course I cried. Out of chest pain. And I was still listening to Juunana Sai.
Why did you have to go, I yet have to understand.
Even though I was trying to avoid posting immediately after what happened, thinking that maybe tomorrow or some other day I would have been more coherent, upon seeing his face I realized I couldn't keep quiet.
Funny how my brain still doesn't get it. Heart aches, tears keep on flowing, but that pink and soft thing refuses to work.
I've been liking Heath, both as an actor and as a man, ever since 10 things I hate about you, which was his first big hit in Hollywood. I've seen most of his movies, missing just two or three.
I know that the amount of movies you've watched doesn't make you a better fan, but I'm surely ranking higher than anyone else who happened to see just one by chance, aren't I?
I was AM a fan. I've always supported him, in the ways you can support an actor. I've seen him grow, and I'll always remember what I told my family: "This boy is going to be famous. Trust me. He's great.".
I loved his way of acting. I loved his deep voice. Most people complained about how he always sounded sleepy and mumbling, but seriously - you can't judge an actor basing yourself on his voice alone.
I have many favourite actors (Dustin Hoffman and Geoffrey Rush just to name two), but I guess my all time fave was definitely Heath. And I think I grew attached to him like this because I've been keeping not just one eye, but both, on him for almost 10 years now. My love for him was so mature and adult-like that I managed to be happy both when he married and when they had the baby. Whereas an average fangirl would have like broken down in tears and cursed the "damn woman".
If I think about what I was doing just before my dad stepped into the room and told me about what happened to "this young actor who was in that cowboys movie", I get shivers. I was downloading some old Gazette songs because my sister asked for them, and as soon as I listened to a couple of them, it was like a dive into the past. So many memories. Then I remembered about Juunana Sai. The masterpiece. One of the few songs that can really make your heart sink, and when I say really I say it for real. Just the lyrics alone are a blast, if you're brave enough to add the music (and that goddamn guitar at the end which is just too much to handle), well good job. Anyway, I got that one. I pressed play. At the beginning it was just a subtle feeling, but then melancholy wanted to be on top. So I felt like that, without an apparent reason. Dad came in without even knocking and babbled something about this young actor and stuff, and it actually took me some time before I could realize who was that all about.
I quickly googled his name, and there was the article. I raised both hands, uncounsciously, and covered my mouth. I stopped breathing. I couldn't utter a word, but somehow I managed to tell dad that "yes, it's Heath Ledger". He went back to the kitchen, and what did I do? Of course I cried. Out of chest pain. And I was still listening to Juunana Sai.
Why did you have to go, I yet have to understand.