well, somehow it's that time of the year
02 October 2007: my super shitty 20.
They're sending me elsewhere to work, I most surely have bought the car for nothing and I have anxiety crisis at least twice a day.
Few good things are my sister's presents (a blue portable cd case + a bright blue and pink tea set) and Suju's movie, which arrived this morning. I got Hyukjae on the little mirror <3 how cool is it that at the end of the movie there's the wonder boy performance WITH SUBS? such a poetic song omg.
I'm not doing anything special, anyway. No parties and such. Maybe just a fruit cake and a couple donuts with my family. I'm so simple （￣〜￣；）
Mood swings. That's what worries me the most. Trust me, the day will be ruined.
As soon as I'm done crying, I tell myself that after all I could do well because I'm quite adaptable. Everytime. Even after I wrote down the second line of this post, I thought that maybe I could pull it off. My brain's sanity level is rapidly decreasing.
Ah, this morning they told me about the job. The new place is at least 10 kms farther from the former one, and honestly, if I have to work for 600/700 euros and then spend 1/3 of that for gas and other car stuff like insurance and maintenance, fuck no. I was so happy there, despite the first day impact and the fact that I worked for just three days.
Aish... Whenever I get accustomed to things, they change. It's written in the stars that I must be unlucky for the rest of my life.
God please, let my birthday be a decent one.
They're sending me elsewhere to work, I most surely have bought the car for nothing and I have anxiety crisis at least twice a day.
Few good things are my sister's presents (a blue portable cd case + a bright blue and pink tea set) and Suju's movie, which arrived this morning. I got Hyukjae on the little mirror <3 how cool is it that at the end of the movie there's the wonder boy performance WITH SUBS? such a poetic song omg.
I'm not doing anything special, anyway. No parties and such. Maybe just a fruit cake and a couple donuts with my family. I'm so simple （￣〜￣；）
Mood swings. That's what worries me the most. Trust me, the day will be ruined.
As soon as I'm done crying, I tell myself that after all I could do well because I'm quite adaptable. Everytime. Even after I wrote down the second line of this post, I thought that maybe I could pull it off. My brain's sanity level is rapidly decreasing.
Ah, this morning they told me about the job. The new place is at least 10 kms farther from the former one, and honestly, if I have to work for 600/700 euros and then spend 1/3 of that for gas and other car stuff like insurance and maintenance, fuck no. I was so happy there, despite the first day impact and the fact that I worked for just three days.
Aish... Whenever I get accustomed to things, they change. It's written in the stars that I must be unlucky for the rest of my life.
God please, let my birthday be a decent one.