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me and travis were texting for hours yesterday, from 11PM-1AM i think about... nothing lol
i liked it, it was cool. maybe i wont give up just yet on making him my brother of some sort, tho him being my big brother prolly wont work.
my goals for this year are to:
1. get A's and B's
2. be a nicer person, friendly to everyone, and not dislike anyone
3. get closer to the guys, particularly travis and maybe joseph too.
hanging out with the guys more this year is really cool. i found out that joseph is really nice, and easy to talk to too. travis can be difficult but he's cool too. keenu is just awesome, i dont think any of the guys can top him. (lol not that like)
i think about what type of person i am a lot, and i've concluded that i am myself around my friends. i dont care what stupid things i do because i know they know who i am and what i care about. so i can be myself. but i'm still adjusting around the guys, with exception to keenu b/c i'm fully comfortable around him. i act like myself for sure, but then i think about what i did and think that it was so stupid of it and what impression i made on them. actually prolly just mainly *insert name* because i'm slightly crushing on him a bit, but hopefully that will go away soon. i'm glad i dont like danny anymore -.- which reminds me, melissa asked me about the "guy on my phone" lol once at lea's, but i never got to explain because we changed the subject. but i feel as if i owe her an explanation since there's nothing to hide, i'm waiting for her to bring it up again. i dunno if she will tho.. maybe she doesnt know that she can or think it might be awkward... hrmm.
anyways, there's something up with me and liking within my realm of friends. then again, i trick myself into thinking i like someone a lot too, kinda like melly and mika. its like a tricked infatuation of the mind i think. only time can tell i guess =) for now i want to live simply and happily, like dutifully doing my work.
i just want to be happy. but with the LTK, my family, and all the love and support i need, that shouldn't be too hard <3
i liked it, it was cool. maybe i wont give up just yet on making him my brother of some sort, tho him being my big brother prolly wont work.
my goals for this year are to:
1. get A's and B's
2. be a nicer person, friendly to everyone, and not dislike anyone
3. get closer to the guys, particularly travis and maybe joseph too.
hanging out with the guys more this year is really cool. i found out that joseph is really nice, and easy to talk to too. travis can be difficult but he's cool too. keenu is just awesome, i dont think any of the guys can top him. (lol not that like)
i think about what type of person i am a lot, and i've concluded that i am myself around my friends. i dont care what stupid things i do because i know they know who i am and what i care about. so i can be myself. but i'm still adjusting around the guys, with exception to keenu b/c i'm fully comfortable around him. i act like myself for sure, but then i think about what i did and think that it was so stupid of it and what impression i made on them. actually prolly just mainly *insert name* because i'm slightly crushing on him a bit, but hopefully that will go away soon. i'm glad i dont like danny anymore -.- which reminds me, melissa asked me about the "guy on my phone" lol once at lea's, but i never got to explain because we changed the subject. but i feel as if i owe her an explanation since there's nothing to hide, i'm waiting for her to bring it up again. i dunno if she will tho.. maybe she doesnt know that she can or think it might be awkward... hrmm.
anyways, there's something up with me and liking within my realm of friends. then again, i trick myself into thinking i like someone a lot too, kinda like melly and mika. its like a tricked infatuation of the mind i think. only time can tell i guess =) for now i want to live simply and happily, like dutifully doing my work.
i just want to be happy. but with the LTK, my family, and all the love and support i need, that shouldn't be too hard <3