...giving measy helpings of life to this dead site
Date: Nov 1, 2008 10:24 PM
Subject: %%
Body: .......
Wrath
Who did you last get angry with?
my younger sister for calling me a name i dont deserve...
but words to her are nothing...and to me theyre everything
What is your weapon of choice?
stripping someone bare in humiliation with words
guilt trips
Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
i have..not too hard
How about the same sex?
no
Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
i dont know any reason for someone to be angry with me..it must all be behind my back
What is your pet peeve?
someone who holds themselves on a high horse....or talks down to me challenging my intellect instead of coming at me as an equal...
or someone who says "i did this for you...now do this for me..."
any and every single time they help you out...and can never make it an
act of love..
Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
anger turns to just plain out hurt with me quick...
i dont let them go..i just cover them up reeeeaall thick with smiles
because nobody is good at apologising it seems..
Sloth
What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
pet shelby? not my dog... : (
What is the latest you've ever woken up?
maybe two pm....my slothiest amount of hours straight i can sleep is ten hours
Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
quite the contrary!
i think im learning a lesson for all the times i put my phone on silent mode
before this started happening to me..
learning sucks sometimes..ha
What is the last lame excuse that you made?
my excuses are always legit
Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
when i watch tv...im not watching
How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning?
when it rings it reverberates in my head not granting me any more leisure sleep
Gluttony
What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
red bull...3 bucks?
Are you a meat eater?
oh yes...every entree...i like lamb
What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
a whole personal flask of jager...minus maybe a couple swigs from a pal
Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits?
hell no..expensive habits!
Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
are you kidding?? ask steve "give me sweeeeettttsss, give me chocolaatteeessss" in my witch voice..hahaha
oh wait..our names dont exist together..whoops
Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
i never crave spicy
when im menstrual..i need doritos and snickers
Greed
How many credit cards do you own?
victorias secret..kohls dept...bank visa...yipe!
If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
hump it
Would you rather be rich or famous?
they are hand in hand right?
rich
Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
yes, because my afterhours would be amazing!
...and only boring people get bored
Pride
What's one thing that you have done that you're most proud of?
put nerves underway
ive landed every job ive ever interviewed for..aced every state test
for my schooling first try..grabbed every team ive ever tried out for..
im just a go getter..
brag brag brag
What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?
i wonder what my dad would say....i feel like he doesnt truly know me
mom would say that ive come out very graceful and understanding of everything thats been thrown at me..
What thing would you like to accomplish later in your life?
ask me personally
Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
depends on if i had fair competition..and whose judging..
im not a sour sport at all
Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
mmmm..we had fair advantage of time practiced and credible teaching...but i knew in my head id come out on top...thats fair chance though...sometimes ones just naturally ahead
Have you ever cheated to get a better score?
who hasnt in high school?...only in what i thought were desperate measures..and i would never take an answer word for word..just as guidance.....riiighhhhht : )
What did you do today that you're proud of?
gave full attention to my clients..made them sigh...ohhh that feels sooo nice
Lust
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
hello??...considering my job title...im seeing the naked body everyday
plus..my friends arent shy..and my men..well..they arent shy either
How many people have seen you naked (not counting physicians, doctors, family, locker rooms, or when you were a young child)?
remember that one time in the pool?? midnight blue outsidewe were all nude and we didnt give a fuck? or the other times having to do with the word fuck..
Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation?
womens chest moreso mens crotch
mr dewitt that one time..how i accidently dosed off on his crotch and he made it noticeabl;e to the whole class....yeahhh
What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
underarm pectoral muscle...OH
Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons?
check
Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
hell no
Envy
What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
digital technology like cameras and laptops and dohickie phones and whatnot..i dont have anything like that
Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
nah
If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
myself in the sixties
Have you ever been cheated on?
im sure i was...thats sad
Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
i think ive grown into my features nicely....i had such a round face so little
as a year ago...my body still looks like i cheerlead which is awesome...dont know how long thall last..hahah
Date: Oct 30, 2008 12:59 AM
Subject: yes..there is a point, i assure you..keep reading
Body: There was an old lady who swallowed a fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly,
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a bird.
How absurd to swallow a bird.
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a cat.
Imagine that, she swallowed a cat.
She swallowed the cat to catch the bird.
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a dog.
My what a hog, to swallow a dog.
She swallowed the dog to catch the cat.
She swallowed the cat, to catch the bird,
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a cow.
I don't know how she swallowed a cow.
She swallowed the cow to catch the dog.
She swallowed the dog, to catch the cat.
She swallowed the cat to catch the bird.
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly
I guess she'll die.
I know an old lady who swallowed a horse...
She's dead of course!
__________
yep..that lady is me...im getting old by trying to cover problems with temporary solutions that ill have to eat up later...my stomach hurts
and im going to die
shouldnt have swallowed the spider in the first place.
October 27 2008
Does your father approve of who you are dating?:
oh daddy...if only you knew..and if you did, youd deny it all
What color is the shirt you' re wearing now?:
mourners clergyman and 1950's beatniks
absence of color
black longsleeve
Whats on your mind?:
its like those novels with the alternate endings..but without the luxury of going back to page 92...and choosing another route..its all there..the answer to your curiousity...but the pages are just conveniently stuck together once you make a decision..but alas! another alternate path to make..they just keep coming before i can even stop to ponder the "what ifs" of the last choice
Have you watched A Shot of Love with Tila Tequila?:
shes awkward looking..alienish
seems like real feelings were developed with the contestants
more real than lets say...Flava flav!
Do you want to see someone this very minute?:
no...id rather be alone now...i have to regather
i dont want to see any of your sorry mugs anyhow : )
Do you have a deep secret?:
i dont have any secrets that id cringe too terribly when sharing...when you learn to share about yourself..the private stuff..you find out others have almost the exact same shameful/embarrassing/stripping/hurtful/hilarious secret that you keep..or theyve got something to top it..most chances
Do you like someone?:
i can create chemistry with most anyone..
i dont know if im creating things or if they are happening naturally
im just an entertainer...i want to fast forward to the comfort and familiarity feeling..just for a few minutes...i miss that well invested/safe place
Are you normally a happy person?:
yes..as long as ive got a few funny mentionables and observations in my pocket to strike engaging convo then im happy...im happy when stimulated
Do you miss anyone?:
always.
the worse is when someone is physically close but...
Whats something you wish you could understand better?:
my sleeping life
creative genius of WTF scenarios
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a B?:
id take that one back so quick and it wouldnt change a thing..cept a disgusted little squirmy face i make when im reminded
Do you think that you're a good person?:
yes...essentially
Do you believe in love at first sight?:
ehh...i do believe we can fall in love with an essence..by slyly observing a person and how they carry themselves..how they move and what they reveal in their facial expression tells a lot more than they think..posture/grace and how it shares whats going on in their life..it may be an even truer glimpse of who they are then what front and facade may pour out their mouth...to guard the nakedness of whats shown in silence and body language..
well, thats a more poetic love
but raw love..at first sight?...are you serious?...no
Do you hate the last person you were talking to in person?:
no stephen's neat...but the texting ex does
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:
mitch..that little devil of a guy..red hair..red swede shoes..promised phone calls..devil because ill forgive him
Are you honest with people?:
well..i answer questions with more questions
commonly said..i "beat around the bush" till they forget the original question..and if im hot on a roll of veering tactics that night,
they will forget the topic altogether and start a new one of my choosing
im not a liar though...hell no im not
What do you want in life?:
full belly..full heart..equilibrium..clarity of spirit..mind..the things that all humans need to feel happy..a kindred spirit (haha) to share my time with...
i want to always be able to surprise myself..venture out of these familiar perimeters...the usual
Do you believe in true love?:
fucking jealous zeus with his orders..fucking thor with his striking thuderbolts..spliting up the original peaceful two headed beings..cut down the middle..they mourn and wander..leaving them searching and searching for their other halves in a newly chaotic world...slamming their lonely bodies together frantically in search of their soul mate reunited...the origin of love
do i believe in it?
what else is there to believe in?
Are you playing hard to get right now?:
im playing something..im not sure what my vital signs are while im playing it either...guess ill see
Do you miss your past?:
im an overly nostalgic and sentimental person...and you know what?
i tend to shed a happier light on memories than i originally remember it being played out when taken second thought...maybe its better for my health that way : D
i dont miss the past
im the biproduct of it, making due the best i can presently, for the future
Are you proud of the person you've become?:
ive worked hard on myself to get here..there are always improvements to be made..so is life...but ive done pretty good in comparison to some of the numbskulls ive encountered
How good is your eyesight?:
i see weird shenanigans at action in a 360 view
What' s the longest amount of time you' ve been on an airplane?:
an hour
Who was the last person you had a serious talk with?:
mom rachel and shama..theyre the only ones i feel catch my drift..and dont try to selfishly spill onto me their "related" problems before i get the chance t o feel consoled and hit closure on a topic..i appreciate it
In the past week have you felt sad?:
yup
How do you feel when someone kisses you on the forehead?:
depends...only after ive been given a more lusty expression to make me feel like a "woman"..then can follow the cute kiss on the head that spoils me like a "girl"..i can eat up those "i adore you" ones..
i HATE the dismissal forehead kisses
i like the family forehead kisses
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?:
ive done it before i can do it again..dont know if i care to right now
you'll share, you'll invest, you'll forgive, you'll cry...again
then he'll date your sister
then you summon up strength from who knows where and youll find your much more resilient than you think...
Are you afraid of death/dying?:
im afraid of the reprecussion onto my family...
honestly im scared as fuck of death
How many people do you know with your name?:
sad that you cant hear the 'k' in my name...otherwise i have the most generic white girl name....three to a classroom name
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?:
brisk
If you could tell a certain person something right now, what would you say?:
invade my privacy
leave no fingerprints
i wont even ask for a search warrant
just do the job clean and efficiently
How long have you been at your current job?:
half a year at eroma...im so glad i chose this career field..theres so many aspects to jump into with my license..thats awesome for someone who needs a change every year or so...
What are you excited about right now?:
excited isnt a word i can scrap up an anticipated anything for
im not sure if that sentence is correct...but ill just say it boring
-nothing-
Ever stayed up all night on the phone?:
no..phones dont work for me..bad reception static misunderstanding headaches
Does it take a lot to make you cry?:
i need one good cry alone...then one good cry with a friend...then im cool
im not too much of a softie..but heartstrings get struck pretty easily because i get offended quick...i need to learn that not everyone thinks the way i do..they arent sensitive/aware to what they cause
Are you in a good mood?:
sure why not
If you could move somewhere else, would you?:
im needed at home right now with the fam
to get out of this family nest and on my own..jager with the roomates..im all for that experience...im ready...not financially...but
give it another year or so
Is there anyone that means a lot to you?:
what a sorry life id be leading if i didnt
Do you say sorry first?:
if its my fault, which im aware when it is..yes, of course
but other than that i will guilt trip and pinpoint the wrongdoings
until they grovel and wonder how they will ever recieve forgiveness
poor unfortunate souls
jk
Are you happy with the way things are going?:
at least im not bored..thats the goal..to keep busy so i dont have time to think
In the past week have you cried?:
no
Do you have a reason to smile right now?:
im sure i have plenty...but im so spoiled in thinking i deserve all these things, that ive earned the smiling matters...hand me something i didnt have to work for as a here you go my sweet dear...heres one of lifes sweet little unexpected bonuses...then ill give you a big toothy one
yeah..brat
How has this past week been for you?:
juggling act, purely
old friends, new friends...
Has anyone disappointed you recently?:
should i give an outright huge GAFFAW!?..or a wouldnt-you-like-to-know-the-details chuckle to myself?
Do you plan on moving within the next year?:
if a pal has a place outside the parentals crib where i can steal beer outta the fridge and walk around in ma panties no...ill be a non paying roomate there and mooch off mummy for a bit longer here
Are you a morning person or a night?:
considering its 2 oclock.. but ihave good will power..i hardly sleep through morning alarms
Do you know what you' re wearing tomorrow?:
nope..but i dont have much of a selection anyhow with my wardrobe
Did you go to sleep happy last night?:
i went to sleep shivering...but i cant remember if it was the cold that provoked the shivering...curious
Who do you trust with your life?:
why does that sound like an idiot question?
i dont really understand it
Have you ever been to Mexico?:
puerto nuevo...extra slosh of tequila...extra slosh in dyslexic stringing of words
Have you ever eaten raw pumpkin?:
the meat that clung to the roasted pumkin seeds
What was the reason you last received flowers?:
downtown sd celebrating dads 41st birthday..bought me n erika a rose..i kept slamming the bud into erikas face...yeah it was annoying, but i couldnt stop myself
What time will you be getting up in the morning?:
ahh..dont know..dont have work till three and dance rehearsal has switched days...yesssssssss
Would you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your wife or husband?:
cut that sleazeball out of my circle
and for the man...divorce his ass..deliver the papers in red lipstick,
newly dyed hair and some sexy clickety shoes...im not broken..
his loss..watch his eyes trace the outlining of my full lips as i whisper bye hunny..mwua
no
thats just a sick situation..id do all that postd...probably minus the heels and the mwua
Do you like tattoos and piercings?:
i am adorned..im not done
What's your favorite season?:
autumn...its all about lighting
Who was the last person you were in a car with apart from family?:
i like getting my hair pet
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?:
really i think i will be
on our first date he'll smile when i insist on paying for my half of dinner
and say "id be an idiot to not see what a catch you are..i want to feed you expensive food in sheer joy of watching how you dance when your loving the dish laid out before you"
he will say that exact bit..watch
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?:
target
Do you like to cuddle?:
im very particular about touch...if im receiving a limp arm and a balled up fist that feels like its just resting as dead weight and nothing more..ill pass
or if your making my shoulder raw with repetitive mini circles ill get irritated...
if your showing me a true imbrace then ill love you
How late did you stay up last night? Why?:
like three..its jess's normalcy
What will you be doing at 8AM tomorrow?:
rem state
Have you ever fired a gun?:
id like to feel that power..id probably throw up
Do you like to travel by plane?:
what a headache
Subject: %%
Body: .......
Wrath
Who did you last get angry with?
my younger sister for calling me a name i dont deserve...
but words to her are nothing...and to me theyre everything
What is your weapon of choice?
stripping someone bare in humiliation with words
guilt trips
Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
i have..not too hard
How about the same sex?
no
Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
i dont know any reason for someone to be angry with me..it must all be behind my back
What is your pet peeve?
someone who holds themselves on a high horse....or talks down to me challenging my intellect instead of coming at me as an equal...
or someone who says "i did this for you...now do this for me..."
any and every single time they help you out...and can never make it an
act of love..
Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
anger turns to just plain out hurt with me quick...
i dont let them go..i just cover them up reeeeaall thick with smiles
because nobody is good at apologising it seems..
Sloth
What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
pet shelby? not my dog... : (
What is the latest you've ever woken up?
maybe two pm....my slothiest amount of hours straight i can sleep is ten hours
Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
quite the contrary!
i think im learning a lesson for all the times i put my phone on silent mode
before this started happening to me..
learning sucks sometimes..ha
What is the last lame excuse that you made?
my excuses are always legit
Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
when i watch tv...im not watching
How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning?
when it rings it reverberates in my head not granting me any more leisure sleep
Gluttony
What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
red bull...3 bucks?
Are you a meat eater?
oh yes...every entree...i like lamb
What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
a whole personal flask of jager...minus maybe a couple swigs from a pal
Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits?
hell no..expensive habits!
Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
are you kidding?? ask steve "give me sweeeeettttsss, give me chocolaatteeessss" in my witch voice..hahaha
oh wait..our names dont exist together..whoops
Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
i never crave spicy
when im menstrual..i need doritos and snickers
Greed
How many credit cards do you own?
victorias secret..kohls dept...bank visa...yipe!
If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
hump it
Would you rather be rich or famous?
they are hand in hand right?
rich
Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
yes, because my afterhours would be amazing!
...and only boring people get bored
Pride
What's one thing that you have done that you're most proud of?
put nerves underway
ive landed every job ive ever interviewed for..aced every state test
for my schooling first try..grabbed every team ive ever tried out for..
im just a go getter..
brag brag brag
What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?
i wonder what my dad would say....i feel like he doesnt truly know me
mom would say that ive come out very graceful and understanding of everything thats been thrown at me..
What thing would you like to accomplish later in your life?
ask me personally
Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
depends on if i had fair competition..and whose judging..
im not a sour sport at all
Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
mmmm..we had fair advantage of time practiced and credible teaching...but i knew in my head id come out on top...thats fair chance though...sometimes ones just naturally ahead
Have you ever cheated to get a better score?
who hasnt in high school?...only in what i thought were desperate measures..and i would never take an answer word for word..just as guidance.....riiighhhhht : )
What did you do today that you're proud of?
gave full attention to my clients..made them sigh...ohhh that feels sooo nice
Lust
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
hello??...considering my job title...im seeing the naked body everyday
plus..my friends arent shy..and my men..well..they arent shy either
How many people have seen you naked (not counting physicians, doctors, family, locker rooms, or when you were a young child)?
remember that one time in the pool?? midnight blue outsidewe were all nude and we didnt give a fuck? or the other times having to do with the word fuck..
Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation?
womens chest moreso mens crotch
mr dewitt that one time..how i accidently dosed off on his crotch and he made it noticeabl;e to the whole class....yeahhh
What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
underarm pectoral muscle...OH
Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons?
check
Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
hell no
Envy
What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
digital technology like cameras and laptops and dohickie phones and whatnot..i dont have anything like that
Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
nah
If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
myself in the sixties
Have you ever been cheated on?
im sure i was...thats sad
Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
i think ive grown into my features nicely....i had such a round face so little
as a year ago...my body still looks like i cheerlead which is awesome...dont know how long thall last..hahah
Date: Oct 30, 2008 12:59 AM
Subject: yes..there is a point, i assure you..keep reading
Body: There was an old lady who swallowed a fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly,
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a bird.
How absurd to swallow a bird.
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a cat.
Imagine that, she swallowed a cat.
She swallowed the cat to catch the bird.
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a dog.
My what a hog, to swallow a dog.
She swallowed the dog to catch the cat.
She swallowed the cat, to catch the bird,
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly.
I guess she'll die.
There was an old lady who swallowed a cow.
I don't know how she swallowed a cow.
She swallowed the cow to catch the dog.
She swallowed the dog, to catch the cat.
She swallowed the cat to catch the bird.
She swallowed the bird to catch the spider,
that wiggled and wiggled and tickled inside her.
She swallowed the spider to catch the fly.
I don't know why she swallowed the fly
I guess she'll die.
I know an old lady who swallowed a horse...
She's dead of course!
__________
yep..that lady is me...im getting old by trying to cover problems with temporary solutions that ill have to eat up later...my stomach hurts
and im going to die
shouldnt have swallowed the spider in the first place.
October 27 2008
Does your father approve of who you are dating?:
oh daddy...if only you knew..and if you did, youd deny it all
What color is the shirt you' re wearing now?:
mourners clergyman and 1950's beatniks
absence of color
black longsleeve
Whats on your mind?:
its like those novels with the alternate endings..but without the luxury of going back to page 92...and choosing another route..its all there..the answer to your curiousity...but the pages are just conveniently stuck together once you make a decision..but alas! another alternate path to make..they just keep coming before i can even stop to ponder the "what ifs" of the last choice
Have you watched A Shot of Love with Tila Tequila?:
shes awkward looking..alienish
seems like real feelings were developed with the contestants
more real than lets say...Flava flav!
Do you want to see someone this very minute?:
no...id rather be alone now...i have to regather
i dont want to see any of your sorry mugs anyhow : )
Do you have a deep secret?:
i dont have any secrets that id cringe too terribly when sharing...when you learn to share about yourself..the private stuff..you find out others have almost the exact same shameful/embarrassing/stripping/hurtful/hilarious secret that you keep..or theyve got something to top it..most chances
Do you like someone?:
i can create chemistry with most anyone..
i dont know if im creating things or if they are happening naturally
im just an entertainer...i want to fast forward to the comfort and familiarity feeling..just for a few minutes...i miss that well invested/safe place
Are you normally a happy person?:
yes..as long as ive got a few funny mentionables and observations in my pocket to strike engaging convo then im happy...im happy when stimulated
Do you miss anyone?:
always.
the worse is when someone is physically close but...
Whats something you wish you could understand better?:
my sleeping life
creative genius of WTF scenarios
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a B?:
id take that one back so quick and it wouldnt change a thing..cept a disgusted little squirmy face i make when im reminded
Do you think that you're a good person?:
yes...essentially
Do you believe in love at first sight?:
ehh...i do believe we can fall in love with an essence..by slyly observing a person and how they carry themselves..how they move and what they reveal in their facial expression tells a lot more than they think..posture/grace and how it shares whats going on in their life..it may be an even truer glimpse of who they are then what front and facade may pour out their mouth...to guard the nakedness of whats shown in silence and body language..
well, thats a more poetic love
but raw love..at first sight?...are you serious?...no
Do you hate the last person you were talking to in person?:
no stephen's neat...but the texting ex does
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:
mitch..that little devil of a guy..red hair..red swede shoes..promised phone calls..devil because ill forgive him
Are you honest with people?:
well..i answer questions with more questions
commonly said..i "beat around the bush" till they forget the original question..and if im hot on a roll of veering tactics that night,
they will forget the topic altogether and start a new one of my choosing
im not a liar though...hell no im not
What do you want in life?:
full belly..full heart..equilibrium..clarity of spirit..mind..the things that all humans need to feel happy..a kindred spirit (haha) to share my time with...
i want to always be able to surprise myself..venture out of these familiar perimeters...the usual
Do you believe in true love?:
fucking jealous zeus with his orders..fucking thor with his striking thuderbolts..spliting up the original peaceful two headed beings..cut down the middle..they mourn and wander..leaving them searching and searching for their other halves in a newly chaotic world...slamming their lonely bodies together frantically in search of their soul mate reunited...the origin of love
do i believe in it?
what else is there to believe in?
Are you playing hard to get right now?:
im playing something..im not sure what my vital signs are while im playing it either...guess ill see
Do you miss your past?:
im an overly nostalgic and sentimental person...and you know what?
i tend to shed a happier light on memories than i originally remember it being played out when taken second thought...maybe its better for my health that way : D
i dont miss the past
im the biproduct of it, making due the best i can presently, for the future
Are you proud of the person you've become?:
ive worked hard on myself to get here..there are always improvements to be made..so is life...but ive done pretty good in comparison to some of the numbskulls ive encountered
How good is your eyesight?:
i see weird shenanigans at action in a 360 view
What' s the longest amount of time you' ve been on an airplane?:
an hour
Who was the last person you had a serious talk with?:
mom rachel and shama..theyre the only ones i feel catch my drift..and dont try to selfishly spill onto me their "related" problems before i get the chance t o feel consoled and hit closure on a topic..i appreciate it
In the past week have you felt sad?:
yup
How do you feel when someone kisses you on the forehead?:
depends...only after ive been given a more lusty expression to make me feel like a "woman"..then can follow the cute kiss on the head that spoils me like a "girl"..i can eat up those "i adore you" ones..
i HATE the dismissal forehead kisses
i like the family forehead kisses
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?:
ive done it before i can do it again..dont know if i care to right now
you'll share, you'll invest, you'll forgive, you'll cry...again
then he'll date your sister
then you summon up strength from who knows where and youll find your much more resilient than you think...
Are you afraid of death/dying?:
im afraid of the reprecussion onto my family...
honestly im scared as fuck of death
How many people do you know with your name?:
sad that you cant hear the 'k' in my name...otherwise i have the most generic white girl name....three to a classroom name
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?:
brisk
If you could tell a certain person something right now, what would you say?:
invade my privacy
leave no fingerprints
i wont even ask for a search warrant
just do the job clean and efficiently
How long have you been at your current job?:
half a year at eroma...im so glad i chose this career field..theres so many aspects to jump into with my license..thats awesome for someone who needs a change every year or so...
What are you excited about right now?:
excited isnt a word i can scrap up an anticipated anything for
im not sure if that sentence is correct...but ill just say it boring
-nothing-
Ever stayed up all night on the phone?:
no..phones dont work for me..bad reception static misunderstanding headaches
Does it take a lot to make you cry?:
i need one good cry alone...then one good cry with a friend...then im cool
im not too much of a softie..but heartstrings get struck pretty easily because i get offended quick...i need to learn that not everyone thinks the way i do..they arent sensitive/aware to what they cause
Are you in a good mood?:
sure why not
If you could move somewhere else, would you?:
im needed at home right now with the fam
to get out of this family nest and on my own..jager with the roomates..im all for that experience...im ready...not financially...but
give it another year or so
Is there anyone that means a lot to you?:
what a sorry life id be leading if i didnt
Do you say sorry first?:
if its my fault, which im aware when it is..yes, of course
but other than that i will guilt trip and pinpoint the wrongdoings
until they grovel and wonder how they will ever recieve forgiveness
poor unfortunate souls
jk
Are you happy with the way things are going?:
at least im not bored..thats the goal..to keep busy so i dont have time to think
In the past week have you cried?:
no
Do you have a reason to smile right now?:
im sure i have plenty...but im so spoiled in thinking i deserve all these things, that ive earned the smiling matters...hand me something i didnt have to work for as a here you go my sweet dear...heres one of lifes sweet little unexpected bonuses...then ill give you a big toothy one
yeah..brat
How has this past week been for you?:
juggling act, purely
old friends, new friends...
Has anyone disappointed you recently?:
should i give an outright huge GAFFAW!?..or a wouldnt-you-like-to-know-the-details chuckle to myself?
Do you plan on moving within the next year?:
if a pal has a place outside the parentals crib where i can steal beer outta the fridge and walk around in ma panties no...ill be a non paying roomate there and mooch off mummy for a bit longer here
Are you a morning person or a night?:
considering its 2 oclock.. but ihave good will power..i hardly sleep through morning alarms
Do you know what you' re wearing tomorrow?:
nope..but i dont have much of a selection anyhow with my wardrobe
Did you go to sleep happy last night?:
i went to sleep shivering...but i cant remember if it was the cold that provoked the shivering...curious
Who do you trust with your life?:
why does that sound like an idiot question?
i dont really understand it
Have you ever been to Mexico?:
puerto nuevo...extra slosh of tequila...extra slosh in dyslexic stringing of words
Have you ever eaten raw pumpkin?:
the meat that clung to the roasted pumkin seeds
What was the reason you last received flowers?:
downtown sd celebrating dads 41st birthday..bought me n erika a rose..i kept slamming the bud into erikas face...yeah it was annoying, but i couldnt stop myself
What time will you be getting up in the morning?:
ahh..dont know..dont have work till three and dance rehearsal has switched days...yesssssssss
Would you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your wife or husband?:
cut that sleazeball out of my circle
and for the man...divorce his ass..deliver the papers in red lipstick,
newly dyed hair and some sexy clickety shoes...im not broken..
his loss..watch his eyes trace the outlining of my full lips as i whisper bye hunny..mwua
no
thats just a sick situation..id do all that postd...probably minus the heels and the mwua
Do you like tattoos and piercings?:
i am adorned..im not done
What's your favorite season?:
autumn...its all about lighting
Who was the last person you were in a car with apart from family?:
i like getting my hair pet
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?:
really i think i will be
on our first date he'll smile when i insist on paying for my half of dinner
and say "id be an idiot to not see what a catch you are..i want to feed you expensive food in sheer joy of watching how you dance when your loving the dish laid out before you"
he will say that exact bit..watch
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?:
target
Do you like to cuddle?:
im very particular about touch...if im receiving a limp arm and a balled up fist that feels like its just resting as dead weight and nothing more..ill pass
or if your making my shoulder raw with repetitive mini circles ill get irritated...
if your showing me a true imbrace then ill love you
How late did you stay up last night? Why?:
like three..its jess's normalcy
What will you be doing at 8AM tomorrow?:
rem state
Have you ever fired a gun?:
id like to feel that power..id probably throw up
Do you like to travel by plane?:
what a headache