im copy/pasting some of my bulletins from myspace so they dont erase forever
august 16th
to see truth is beyond what your willing
your make is lace and frill
sure enough..right here..present
i offer something you need to hear
still underlook the hint/symptoms
too tired? to confront
its not new years..starting over isnt option
appointment 2 oclock : mind expansion
scared
the slate drops you landslide stranded
unaware by choice
your as alone as me
sorry i had to shatter that glossy polished picture
pass it on
epidemic
August 22
1. Who ended your last relationship?
i did...man was i dramatic...i just want to pat that jessika that i was a year ago on the back..poor girl.
2. If you could be on any TV show, which one would you be on?
id totally rule on that complete the rest of the lyrics show(title??)...i test myself against it...and last night i won 20,000 dollars..shit
3.) Why is this?
im a devoted radio listener...my dad has always quizzed me..my parents brought me up on a large array of music
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
checking email..surprised my boyfriend left me a message that was longer than 5 words..whoa
5. Are you any good at math?
im totally average...dont have that spacial intelligence..watch me parallel park..ha!..see the big dent in my car..double ha!
6. What were you doing yesterday?
work..visit dad..hillcrest..walmart..tacobell..home
7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
my ancestors are of royal decent from kingdom of assyria..now syria
umm related to buffalo bill cody
thats all i know of
8. Have you ever burped in front of the opposite sex?
i dont burp in front of of anyone..i think its rude..at least keep it in mouth if you MUst..and pardon yourself
9. Do you know all the words to the song on your myspace page?
there are intervals where i just slur a whole bunch of sounds together
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
water..brisk tea..naked shake
12. What's one thing you wish to change about yourself?
can alwaysss use a bit more confidence (most can work with some more)
and hey..find my spiritual center once again..but for the most part..im a pretty neat girl.
13. What do you wish for?
inspiration and growth
14. Do you write your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
nope..i make half moons with this ballet move i miss
15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
just getting a fill and having the dentist crank that funky apparatis too tightly
16. What is outside your back door?
huge grape vine..maybe some moths flopping in spilt detergent on top of our washer dryer set..
17. Any plans for Friday night?
steve and i probably celebrating our 6 months monogamy..big deal for me, the flittering butterfly that doesnt hold still...ill find out what it is for him..hmm
18.Do you have a secret crush?
always do..its like i need to have them
20. Do you keep in touch with your exes?
no i dont..probably a good thing..can never really sever those differences..and can never forget there shared moments and how they were closed off because other company was prefered over their exclusive company..ouch
21. Do you dislike anyone right now?
im disliking certain characteristics in a lot of people...a lot of people
22. Something you are excited about?
yes..excited about moving on with so many things..fucking catharsis
23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
dont like the texture really..so no thanks...well, maybe pineapple or madarin orange
24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
well yes...my great grandmother from texas...last time i saw her she had a crush on sisqo and loved hot cheetos
25. Describe your key chain...
peacock card, hollywood video membership card, peacesign, beads, portrait of frida kahlo
27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group?
yesterday night at suppourt group to make an announcement...i dont have a problem with speaking unless i dont have my shit rehearsed at least a little..then my mind kind of switches over...and im talking without knowing what ive just said..its a very weird feeling...like a tunnel
28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
usually something corduroy..i love that fabric
29. Do you have any nicknames?
today i was called
"a little piece of leather, but nicely put together"
speaking on my strength
30. Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot with your tongue?
no..but that doesnt mean i dont have skill and style..no it doesnt
August 23
1. I've come to realize the last person who held my hand...
was the lady who gave me a facial a few hours ago..she gave me a sweet rub down along my arms and hands..very nice/soothing..my back tingled
2. I am listening to...
television in next room
3. I talk...
when i feel something is to be shared..i am stimulated by conversation..mostly when im the one blabbing..umm..i talk to myself also
4. I am dating...
steve..awesome guy...beautiful actually..6 months steady..he has a horrible memory (thought id add that)
5. My best friend(s)...
are:
my sister
my rachel
& steve
6. My car...
is neglected by me..it smells like chemical inside for some reason..started today...ball joints fucked up...littered by reciepts and various fast food joint trash
7. I hate it when people ask...
"are you okay?" over and over again when im completly contently drunkenly observing a crowd
8. Love is...
something were desperate for...its part of the human element
9. Marriage is...
so sacred...not a whimsical romantic plan..no rushing
10. Somewhere, someone is thinking...
instead of following their intuition
11. I'm always...
singing, wiggling my body, or twisting the tips of my hair
12. I have a secret crush...
on tumnus the fawn, from the lion witch and wardobe
13. My cell phone...
is outdated and gives me a hard time everytime
14. When I wake up in the morning...
im nauseus..no, i havent a skipped period.
15. Before I go to bed at night...
i do my facial routine with a headband on..walk in and out of the living room a couple of times mostly to stare at my mom like i have something to say and annoy her for my pleasure..that sounds like an average night
16. Right now I am thinking about...
this research project my dad threw on me because he doesnt have internet access..yippee
17. Babies are...
beautiful and fragile...wiggling and giggling..i want some..im excited
18. I get on MySpace...
and converse...i send picture comments to people that dont send them back..i post bulletins that few people respond to even though they are unique thoughtful passages..but i do them mostly as a venting tool...anddd i keep in touch here on thisa site..pretty basic
19. Today I...
went searching for rose bushes to steal from in crest but only found two barely acceptable roses by my taste
20. Tonight I will...
maybe take an energy pill and have a painting fiasco in my bedroom..yess
21. Tomorrow I will...
veg and relax...pamper myself
maybe create a resume
look stunning for a date with my guy
22. I really want...
to be catered to..mm..thats is what i want but i can never accept it
i guess thats why i got off on getting that facial...complete pampering..didnt have to respond make conversation...just focus on my feeling good.
ARE YOU:
1. A gangsta?: i couldnt pull that off
2. Are you tall?: five foot four
3. In your pajamas?: not yet
4. Left handed? right handed
LAST
1. Friend you saw: steve
2. Talked to on the phone: erika
3. Person to text you: i dont get texting
4. Was today better than 2 days ago: shitload
FAVORITE:
1. Number: i feel better with evens...but in terms of design, odd sequences are more appealing to the eye the rule of thirds for example
2. Color: ive been into green shades lately
3. Food: italian..i just love loads of cheese...doesnt affect me so i can have it
4. Place: boyfriends bed..and any secret secluded little nook of nature
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
theres always something...and if there isnt..i get a little nervous
Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
Stardust...long
Q: Where is the last place you went?
je boutique beauty college
Q:Do you smile often?
i do!
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
i havent in a long time..i wonder what my last wish was?
Q: Are you a friendly person?
i believe so..and so do others, yes.
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
my be..floppy comforter...sweater or jeans twisted around my ankle..
Q: Why did you sleep there?
um..its my designated area ensuring comfort for a well rested night..yes
Q: When was the last time you cried?
yesterday..if i dont do it when i need to, my eyes swell and the area under my chin swells
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
alright! a decision jess!
Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great.
i dont want to
Q: What do you hear right now?
parents casually talking of nothing important
Q: Does anything hurt right now?
a little bit of hurt
Q: What's your favorite month?
fall time..maybe october..yes october...so romantic
Q: How many kids do you want/have?
two
TEN EMOTIONS
1. Are you missing someone right now?:
Yea terribly..my family members are so spread apart
2. Are you happy?
Yes, with some aspects of my life
3. Are you sad?
yes with situations i have no control
4. Are you bored?
never bored...always learning
5. Are you excited?:
im excited for options
6. Are you nervous?:
not really..ive gained a bit more confidence..and faith in the flow of things
7. Are you single?:
im a good girlfriend, and he knows it...lucky
8. Are you tired?
yes
9. Are your parents still married?:
thats hilarious.
10.Do you have a crush on someone right now?
exceeds crush
Gemini (May 21 - Jun 20)
You might truly think that you have enough stamina to conquer the world. Although this may be a wonderful fantasy, don't try it or you'll quickly find yourself overextended. You can take on new projects with gusto now, but think about where you are going first, instead of just jumping right in. It's much smarter to head off in the right direction than to scatter your unrestrained enthusiasm all over the map.
i just quit my job..now i have energy and excitment with brainstorming my next moves...problem is..ive always been so indecisive
to see truth is beyond what your willing
your make is lace and frill
sure enough..right here..present
i offer something you need to hear
still underlook the hint/symptoms
too tired? to confront
its not new years..starting over isnt option
appointment 2 oclock : mind expansion
scared
the slate drops you landslide stranded
unaware by choice
your as alone as me
sorry i had to shatter that glossy polished picture
pass it on
epidemic
August 22
1. Who ended your last relationship?
i did...man was i dramatic...i just want to pat that jessika that i was a year ago on the back..poor girl.
2. If you could be on any TV show, which one would you be on?
id totally rule on that complete the rest of the lyrics show(title??)...i test myself against it...and last night i won 20,000 dollars..shit
3.) Why is this?
im a devoted radio listener...my dad has always quizzed me..my parents brought me up on a large array of music
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
checking email..surprised my boyfriend left me a message that was longer than 5 words..whoa
5. Are you any good at math?
im totally average...dont have that spacial intelligence..watch me parallel park..ha!..see the big dent in my car..double ha!
6. What were you doing yesterday?
work..visit dad..hillcrest..walmart..tacobell..home
7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
my ancestors are of royal decent from kingdom of assyria..now syria
umm related to buffalo bill cody
thats all i know of
8. Have you ever burped in front of the opposite sex?
i dont burp in front of of anyone..i think its rude..at least keep it in mouth if you MUst..and pardon yourself
9. Do you know all the words to the song on your myspace page?
there are intervals where i just slur a whole bunch of sounds together
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
water..brisk tea..naked shake
12. What's one thing you wish to change about yourself?
can alwaysss use a bit more confidence (most can work with some more)
and hey..find my spiritual center once again..but for the most part..im a pretty neat girl.
13. What do you wish for?
inspiration and growth
14. Do you write your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
nope..i make half moons with this ballet move i miss
15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
just getting a fill and having the dentist crank that funky apparatis too tightly
16. What is outside your back door?
huge grape vine..maybe some moths flopping in spilt detergent on top of our washer dryer set..
17. Any plans for Friday night?
steve and i probably celebrating our 6 months monogamy..big deal for me, the flittering butterfly that doesnt hold still...ill find out what it is for him..hmm
18.Do you have a secret crush?
always do..its like i need to have them
20. Do you keep in touch with your exes?
no i dont..probably a good thing..can never really sever those differences..and can never forget there shared moments and how they were closed off because other company was prefered over their exclusive company..ouch
21. Do you dislike anyone right now?
im disliking certain characteristics in a lot of people...a lot of people
22. Something you are excited about?
yes..excited about moving on with so many things..fucking catharsis
23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
dont like the texture really..so no thanks...well, maybe pineapple or madarin orange
24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
well yes...my great grandmother from texas...last time i saw her she had a crush on sisqo and loved hot cheetos
25. Describe your key chain...
peacock card, hollywood video membership card, peacesign, beads, portrait of frida kahlo
27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group?
yesterday night at suppourt group to make an announcement...i dont have a problem with speaking unless i dont have my shit rehearsed at least a little..then my mind kind of switches over...and im talking without knowing what ive just said..its a very weird feeling...like a tunnel
28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
usually something corduroy..i love that fabric
29. Do you have any nicknames?
today i was called
"a little piece of leather, but nicely put together"
speaking on my strength
30. Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot with your tongue?
no..but that doesnt mean i dont have skill and style..no it doesnt
August 23
1. I've come to realize the last person who held my hand...
was the lady who gave me a facial a few hours ago..she gave me a sweet rub down along my arms and hands..very nice/soothing..my back tingled
2. I am listening to...
television in next room
3. I talk...
when i feel something is to be shared..i am stimulated by conversation..mostly when im the one blabbing..umm..i talk to myself also
4. I am dating...
steve..awesome guy...beautiful actually..6 months steady..he has a horrible memory (thought id add that)
5. My best friend(s)...
are:
my sister
my rachel
& steve
6. My car...
is neglected by me..it smells like chemical inside for some reason..started today...ball joints fucked up...littered by reciepts and various fast food joint trash
7. I hate it when people ask...
"are you okay?" over and over again when im completly contently drunkenly observing a crowd
8. Love is...
something were desperate for...its part of the human element
9. Marriage is...
so sacred...not a whimsical romantic plan..no rushing
10. Somewhere, someone is thinking...
instead of following their intuition
11. I'm always...
singing, wiggling my body, or twisting the tips of my hair
12. I have a secret crush...
on tumnus the fawn, from the lion witch and wardobe
13. My cell phone...
is outdated and gives me a hard time everytime
14. When I wake up in the morning...
im nauseus..no, i havent a skipped period.
15. Before I go to bed at night...
i do my facial routine with a headband on..walk in and out of the living room a couple of times mostly to stare at my mom like i have something to say and annoy her for my pleasure..that sounds like an average night
16. Right now I am thinking about...
this research project my dad threw on me because he doesnt have internet access..yippee
17. Babies are...
beautiful and fragile...wiggling and giggling..i want some..im excited
18. I get on MySpace...
and converse...i send picture comments to people that dont send them back..i post bulletins that few people respond to even though they are unique thoughtful passages..but i do them mostly as a venting tool...anddd i keep in touch here on thisa site..pretty basic
19. Today I...
went searching for rose bushes to steal from in crest but only found two barely acceptable roses by my taste
20. Tonight I will...
maybe take an energy pill and have a painting fiasco in my bedroom..yess
21. Tomorrow I will...
veg and relax...pamper myself
maybe create a resume
look stunning for a date with my guy
22. I really want...
to be catered to..mm..thats is what i want but i can never accept it
i guess thats why i got off on getting that facial...complete pampering..didnt have to respond make conversation...just focus on my feeling good.
ARE YOU:
1. A gangsta?: i couldnt pull that off
2. Are you tall?: five foot four
3. In your pajamas?: not yet
4. Left handed? right handed
LAST
1. Friend you saw: steve
2. Talked to on the phone: erika
3. Person to text you: i dont get texting
4. Was today better than 2 days ago: shitload
FAVORITE:
1. Number: i feel better with evens...but in terms of design, odd sequences are more appealing to the eye the rule of thirds for example
2. Color: ive been into green shades lately
3. Food: italian..i just love loads of cheese...doesnt affect me so i can have it
4. Place: boyfriends bed..and any secret secluded little nook of nature
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
theres always something...and if there isnt..i get a little nervous
Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
Stardust...long
Q: Where is the last place you went?
je boutique beauty college
Q:Do you smile often?
i do!
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
i havent in a long time..i wonder what my last wish was?
Q: Are you a friendly person?
i believe so..and so do others, yes.
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
my be..floppy comforter...sweater or jeans twisted around my ankle..
Q: Why did you sleep there?
um..its my designated area ensuring comfort for a well rested night..yes
Q: When was the last time you cried?
yesterday..if i dont do it when i need to, my eyes swell and the area under my chin swells
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
alright! a decision jess!
Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great.
i dont want to
Q: What do you hear right now?
parents casually talking of nothing important
Q: Does anything hurt right now?
a little bit of hurt
Q: What's your favorite month?
fall time..maybe october..yes october...so romantic
Q: How many kids do you want/have?
two
TEN EMOTIONS
1. Are you missing someone right now?:
Yea terribly..my family members are so spread apart
2. Are you happy?
Yes, with some aspects of my life
3. Are you sad?
yes with situations i have no control
4. Are you bored?
never bored...always learning
5. Are you excited?:
im excited for options
6. Are you nervous?:
not really..ive gained a bit more confidence..and faith in the flow of things
7. Are you single?:
im a good girlfriend, and he knows it...lucky
8. Are you tired?
yes
9. Are your parents still married?:
thats hilarious.
10.Do you have a crush on someone right now?
exceeds crush
Gemini (May 21 - Jun 20)
You might truly think that you have enough stamina to conquer the world. Although this may be a wonderful fantasy, don't try it or you'll quickly find yourself overextended. You can take on new projects with gusto now, but think about where you are going first, instead of just jumping right in. It's much smarter to head off in the right direction than to scatter your unrestrained enthusiasm all over the map.
i just quit my job..now i have energy and excitment with brainstorming my next moves...problem is..ive always been so indecisive