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Ahh!! im slacking
i feel really bad that i created praisejahyouppl and im almost never on there!! now that i have my computer, i need to be active. its almost like ive been missing meetings or something. its a part of my routine- er, it should be. so i need to work on that and catch up on peoples posts. cause i feel bad that ive been slacking on that, too.
so, we are having the picnic tommorow. i cant wait!! but i still havent done my watchtower... if i dont do it, im not going. ill just have to tell mom i dont deserve it. now, wont that be weird, after looking forward to it all week, not going because im punishing myself. huh, i need to go check my temperature....
we were out late today. dad gave me $20 dollars to go buy a shirt. i bought three for about $15. hah, my mom ws like 'didnt you ask for ONE shirt? wats up with that?' but i know she understands. im gonna wear one of them tommorow after salon. i just dont know which one... and what pants...hmm tough decision, eh? i did my nails today may be.... four times? or was it five? the first three times was because i messed up and the last two was because i had to clean dishes, vacuum, excetera. i was so mad because today i had a lot of things i had planned to do, and i only accomplished two or three. better to try than to have been a dud all day.
i had the weirdest dream last night!! i was taking care of Shantel's baby!! its scary to think that this may be another dream that comes true. it makes me so angry that she went of and got herself pregnant. she has no idea how this will change things for her and how its affecting her family and her boyfriends life. but they dont care. i will try to take care of the baby; that is the least i can do. when they visit, we can at least take him to the meetings with us. the LEAST we can do is try!! if ronnie had brought shantel up in the truth, then we wouldnt have this problem!!! this same thing happened to ronnie, and now she doesnt care it happened to her daughter. thats just plain stupid. but i knew that was gonna happen the first time i heard she ran away. i get so angry when i think of how these people so close to me are throwing their lives away. its horrible that, if me and my family dont intervene, that shantels baby may never get to know jehovah. that is my worst fear for that baby.
i feel really bad that i created praisejahyouppl and im almost never on there!! now that i have my computer, i need to be active. its almost like ive been missing meetings or something. its a part of my routine- er, it should be. so i need to work on that and catch up on peoples posts. cause i feel bad that ive been slacking on that, too.
so, we are having the picnic tommorow. i cant wait!! but i still havent done my watchtower... if i dont do it, im not going. ill just have to tell mom i dont deserve it. now, wont that be weird, after looking forward to it all week, not going because im punishing myself. huh, i need to go check my temperature....
we were out late today. dad gave me $20 dollars to go buy a shirt. i bought three for about $15. hah, my mom ws like 'didnt you ask for ONE shirt? wats up with that?' but i know she understands. im gonna wear one of them tommorow after salon. i just dont know which one... and what pants...hmm tough decision, eh? i did my nails today may be.... four times? or was it five? the first three times was because i messed up and the last two was because i had to clean dishes, vacuum, excetera. i was so mad because today i had a lot of things i had planned to do, and i only accomplished two or three. better to try than to have been a dud all day.
i had the weirdest dream last night!! i was taking care of Shantel's baby!! its scary to think that this may be another dream that comes true. it makes me so angry that she went of and got herself pregnant. she has no idea how this will change things for her and how its affecting her family and her boyfriends life. but they dont care. i will try to take care of the baby; that is the least i can do. when they visit, we can at least take him to the meetings with us. the LEAST we can do is try!! if ronnie had brought shantel up in the truth, then we wouldnt have this problem!!! this same thing happened to ronnie, and now she doesnt care it happened to her daughter. thats just plain stupid. but i knew that was gonna happen the first time i heard she ran away. i get so angry when i think of how these people so close to me are throwing their lives away. its horrible that, if me and my family dont intervene, that shantels baby may never get to know jehovah. that is my worst fear for that baby.