Helpless
It's taking every ounce of mental and physical energy to leave home and go to university to paint.
All I want to do is crawl back into my cave and hide from the world. Sleep everything away.
I'm trying to swim against the current.
The current being my depression, my anger, my sadness, my loneliness, my fear, my insecurities, my self-deprecation, my hatred, my anxiety.....finally myself.
I'm fighting myself. I have to. No one else is going to fight for me. It's me against me.
All I want to do is crawl back into my cave and hide from the world. Sleep everything away.
I'm trying to swim against the current.
The current being my depression, my anger, my sadness, my loneliness, my fear, my insecurities, my self-deprecation, my hatred, my anxiety.....finally myself.
I'm fighting myself. I have to. No one else is going to fight for me. It's me against me.