The more things change...
the more they stay the same.
This time of year always makes me self-reflect as to how much or how little I've changed in the past several months.
I HATE STRONGLY DISLIKE CHANGE! But I have to keep reminding myself that change is not always a bad thing, that it can be good, that it is my friend...
This post was not going to start off this way; I was going to write about how horrible everything is and how shitty I feel about myself and my life right now. Then I had a change of heart. Life's not so bad and things could be much worse (but I'm glad there not).
Last week, I went through my LJ archives, read a lot of my old post, and thought about how great some things used to be and how bad other things were.
Right now, I don't want to be that person who goes about life always thinking about what used to be, good or bad, and all the while missing out on what is.
I know that's my biggest problem. I'm always reminiscing about the past: trying to figure out what I could've done to make things right or consumed in feelings of how great things were some times.
It's been over a year and a half since I've written in my LJ and I think it's because I'm too busy worrying about the past, that I don't have time to care about the present. This come from a place of fear and it needs to change (and so do I).
This time of year always makes me self-reflect as to how much or how little I've changed in the past several months.
I HATE STRONGLY DISLIKE CHANGE! But I have to keep reminding myself that change is not always a bad thing, that it can be good, that it is my friend...
This post was not going to start off this way; I was going to write about how horrible everything is and how shitty I feel about myself and my life right now. Then I had a change of heart. Life's not so bad and things could be much worse (but I'm glad there not).
Last week, I went through my LJ archives, read a lot of my old post, and thought about how great some things used to be and how bad other things were.
Right now, I don't want to be that person who goes about life always thinking about what used to be, good or bad, and all the while missing out on what is.
I know that's my biggest problem. I'm always reminiscing about the past: trying to figure out what I could've done to make things right or consumed in feelings of how great things were some times.
It's been over a year and a half since I've written in my LJ and I think it's because I'm too busy worrying about the past, that I don't have time to care about the present. This come from a place of fear and it needs to change (and so do I).