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I havent updated this thing much. Now that school is out i dont really get on the computer as often as i used to.
This past weekend was great. We went shopping, ate some really good food, watched a great movie, laid out with beaners, laughed alot, found some really great deals on clothes....it was just fun.
I had a good time going out and doing things...it really helped get my mind off things.
Last night I wasnt strong. After margarita night He called.....and i broke down....i went to his house. I dont regret going i just wish i would have thought about it. Emotionally i cant handle this roller coaster ride. I want off the ride. I want to be a fun college girl like i was this weekend not the serious stay at home girlfriend. Thats where the problem is.....I love him. I really do. I can honestly say i have two lives and they just cant seem to merge. I dont know....I guess in the end one will win out over the other because one side will just give up.
Well i have got to go get finished getting ready. I have a job interview.....
This past weekend was great. We went shopping, ate some really good food, watched a great movie, laid out with beaners, laughed alot, found some really great deals on clothes....it was just fun.
I had a good time going out and doing things...it really helped get my mind off things.
Last night I wasnt strong. After margarita night He called.....and i broke down....i went to his house. I dont regret going i just wish i would have thought about it. Emotionally i cant handle this roller coaster ride. I want off the ride. I want to be a fun college girl like i was this weekend not the serious stay at home girlfriend. Thats where the problem is.....I love him. I really do. I can honestly say i have two lives and they just cant seem to merge. I dont know....I guess in the end one will win out over the other because one side will just give up.
Well i have got to go get finished getting ready. I have a job interview.....