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I need to focus. Little by little, everything is slipping, and I hate that feeling. I had a great week last week, everything just lined up so nicely, but then this morning I got the email saying I didn't get cast in the summer season at UCF and it feels like everything just went to hell. I know it shouldn't It was one audition, one. Just for some reason I feel like I should have been in that show. Always look on the bright side right? At least I made a connection with a composer. I feel really comfortable singing Cole Porter, and I like the songs that I've heard at least. Why is it that one little dip knocks me so out of whack? I was so optimistic, and then got shattered. And now I have to do stuff that I really don't want to, but need to so I can keep up my grades. I wish I could just not care about it, but that won't happen. Whatever, time to buckle down and focus on shit that has to get done. Three weeks till summer, then I'll have nothing to do. *sigh*